38 and my life continues to get worse and worse
Therapy, pills, self help boos and videos- nothing can make me see how I can turn how bad life is for me into a postive.
I can’t afford to live, I have no friends, never had a relationship, and I have literally nothing to show for all my effort and hard work.
my hope is almost completely wiped away.
I have no strengths or talents. I’m not smart. I constantly mess up.
I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.
@TarBear08
What do you want to change? what do you want to do? without a destination the path is not clear, so many stand still.
I agree with you that self help books and things seldom help except for making money for the authors ....since they often are wrote for one size fits all it is unlikely we see a aah-ha moment that changes our mind frame.
I made changes and it is hard and requires pushing myself into unknown or new situations and absolutely not falling back on old habits....life would not change doing the same things...
Everyone has strengths or aptitude for things some that we may not even know... until we find those items and things work better. I feel when we are depressed or feel like giving up it effects all our life like a negative magnet. This feeling and being ticked off by life is not something we can take off like a coat and go on ........it is a personal fight and no books or such can tell us our path we have to find it.
I want to have some fruit from my labors- friends/partner/career/money/skills/intelligence. Anything!
ive done new / unknown. More than anyone else I know. I’ve relocated.
it’s like nothing I do matters bc it always gets worse.
@TarBear08
Hey, I feel like this sometimes... I'm about the same age too. 🤭 I have friends, but sometimes it just feels like they don't like me as much as they used to... I mean, it makes sense, I'm the "crazy" one and the only one without kids.
What do you do for fun? Aside from the stuff you mentioned, getting back into hobbies can lead to purpose and communities of people you might actually really want to hang out with.