Am I getting worse?

Since yesterday, I have been feeling constantly criticized, judged, and unfairly treated at home, especially by my grandmother, whose words and behavior make me feel unappreciated no matter how hard I try. Even when I wake up early, wake my sister, and start making the beds so she doesn’t have to shout, she still finds reasons to complain. I feel that all my efforts—cooking food, preparing meals, cleaning the house, taking care of my younger brother, and trying to follow instructions—go unnoticed, and instead I am blamed for mistakes, sometimes in very hurtful ways. When I struggle with tasks, like cooking green vegetables that I am still learning to prepare, I feel that my inability to be perfect is seen as disrespect or laziness. I feel burdened by expectations that I take on responsibilities far beyond my age, almost as if I am already a parent or a mother to my siblings. At the same time, I am expected to excel in studies, to behave perfectly, and to follow strict household rules, while my father and grandparents rarely support me or acknowledge my efforts. When I try to explain myself or defend my actions, I am told not to talk back to elders, which makes me feel ignored and silenced. All of this has left me emotionally exhausted and mentally stressed, making it hard for me to focus on schoolwork, and even causing me to miss an exam that I actually wanted to attend. I also think about religious teachings that say girls carry the presence of goddesses like Lakshmi and Saraswati, and I feel frustrated that although people speak about these beliefs, the respect and care I am supposed to receive as a girl are not shown in my household. I feel trapped between trying to fulfill my responsibilities, learning new skills like cooking, and wanting to study and grow, all while feeling unsupported and emotionally drained. I want to explain everything to my mother when she comes, hoping she will understand, but until then, I feel overwhelmed, hurt, and alone, struggling to manage the expectations, criticism, and pressures that surround me every day.