Being tired of ppl - (loneliness’s rant)

Hey ppl

Today’s rant is just like every day thing.

I don’t wish it to anyone to fall this deep into such unloved state.

But only now all things reflected n seen backwards (which I never looked this way!) are now making sense!!

I’m tired of ppl. Tired of every effort towards them. Like I’m done. Ofc not for good ppl but it’s hard to believe there are left any when all u got were wrong ppl.

Nobody cares what u gonna do if u give up or not….sure they can pity u n stuff hit that’s all where it ends. I know the motivation videos n stuff where ppl say u gotta do it yourself, self love, self care n then to others but nobody tells u what to do when nobody stood up for yourself n ppl left you alone after so many times!

Plus it’s not fair how alone I am!!

I’m so tired of figuring things out by trial n error n asking questions cuz nobody told me almost anything in this life, no wonder u end up drained n all over the place.

I want to point out important stuff:

When somebody tells u to “just be grateful”…no thank u!!! It’s the last thing I wanna be or think of! It can change matter of minute or next day - you never know… plus, don’t patch my pain please.

I don’t wanna hear your “grateful”

Not useful.

Secondly: you did put urself out there motivating others so much that all they got u back was basically the bare minimum or nothing (u asked for it yourself) like where are we going w this ppl?

They didn’t do anything ….

They only sat back all this time. When I sad I was frustrated or not getting back what I deserved - they stepped back.

-this

NOW, I’m seeing that the motivational energy or basic support was only reflection of my own. It wasn’t about the other person. Cause all they told me was “sometimes speaking w God helps!”

Oh Lord than I don’t even need other ppl, do I? Cause I have God.

But we are humans too! We need connection n support too!!

I’m rly tired doing everything on my own.

Then I get tired, down n sad for real wondering what to do cuz I have stuff to do n now is not time for tiredness or self pity, but yeah it’s every day thing, I don’t wanna think of it, I watch stuff like videos or something else even when I feel the pain I can’t properly focus cuz it sucks.

Also, speaking of which: put your imagination out of the focus, throw lenses away n you’ll see how ppl just don’t care.

All you need is support, not just redirecting!!

This is huge on my own….

I’m sorry I didn’t see it before at all.