Can someone help?..

@Coconut1436

I know it is hard to see any way out and most likely you have tried several things at least once  and they may have not worked or worked just a bit..... It is hard also to take suggestions from others who may not have the anxiety or been bullied etc.   If you ever played video games sometimes we have to keep trying or try new things even if we think they won't work ....several times before breaking thru to a new level. 

Anxiety is awful ........not only experiencing in real time ......but it works overtime in our heads worrying about "what if's" ......that takes up a lot of our time. I sometimes feel people so consumed about things going badly that they will it to happen ...  or event is boring and uneventful if a crisis does not happen someone was NOT rude or mean to us ...  I know bullies can see those cringing waiting for it and it is easy pickings for them...  All things i am sure others have told you before.

We miss opportunities to go and connect or meet new people ... worried they won't like us or it won't be fun..  It is more certain more people will NOT  like you ......IF you NEVER give others a chance to  really know the real  you.... When you make real friends if someone screen shot  something or said things about you .. real friends do not believe gossip and second hand information...and will defend you.  

Many times these connections can be our clue/ missing puzzle piece to other opportunities.  I see people who have hard time finding jobs  because they did not make network ..........connections that may end up being a foot in the door of a job or other opportunities. 

Although I haven't been bullied in school, but school had always been a struggle for me because of past childhood traumas that made me afraid of men.. male teachers specifically. I would be so paranoid that even on weekends, when I go to shopping malls with my parents, while looking for a parking spot (usually very packed), I'll be scanning all the cars and their license plates and hope I don't see my teachers' car there. High school was the worst, of the 4 years, about 95% of my teachers were male. I had to see my counsellor like nearly everyday. 

Now that I'm working, I feel some of my colleagues pick on me, just for the sake of it. I'm not sure if it's considered as bullying, but it does make me feel they tease me a lot, and like to get me in trouble. It feels horrible, and I feel wronged, because their claims on me are not true. Yet, there's really not much I could do, because if I report it, the situation gets investigated, it would be obvious that I said something about it, and then, our relationship within our workplace will get worse. The worst part is, I actually like my job, but it's just my teammates are difficult people to deal with, and my mood gets influenced easily with their attitude towards me.

At school, are there teachers or counselors that you can go forward to for help? I know it may be difficult to stand up for yourself, but I do believe it has to been known so you can function properly in school. I'm glad you have a few friends you can turn to, are they able to somehow help with the bullying? If it's not something you can handle yourself, you need to seek help from the right people.. like teachers or counsellors.

@Coconut1436