Depressed I guess

I’ve been thinking about myself and my worth. I don’t believe I’m valuable to anyone. I’m kind and friendly, caring, empathetic, and understanding, I don’t judge. But I’m also not as thoughtful as I thought, I can sometimes be selfish, lazy, very passive and practically a push over. At best the only thing I know I offer is kindness and listening to people. I’m not fun, I’m a bit funny though, I’m not very social and conversational, I’ve had my fair share of traumas like SA, physical and emotional abuse, a lot of judgement, mainly from my father. Every friend I’ve ever had has left. Except now, I have 2 really good friends and an amazing boyfriend, but I feel like I’m a burden to them. I feel like I’m too anxious, too depressed and I don’t wanna drag them down. I live with my mum and sisters and I hate it. They’re constantly going off at me for things that I don’t do but neither do they. I feel singled out. My mum will say things like ‘my sisters do this and that but you never do this or that’ ‘you should be more like them’. I just want to feel like I’m enough, I know other people think I am but I want to feel it, I don’t feel it. And I feel like I’m reaching my limit.