I am proud of myself
Hey everyone , How's you all doing? i hope good .. I had been soo depressed from past few days that i just can't sleep until its 5:00 AM and sometimes even late and i had been skipping meals and only surviving in black coffee just drinks tons of highly caffeinated black coffee bcz that's what i do when i am restless or overwhelmed so i only had one meal a day at night or sometimes not even that ..these last few days were hard soo hard even so today , it didn't started well but i was way more lighter and smiling then past days but then by evening i get depressed again just wanted to hurt myself and cry but tears just don't come out .. but now i am good i made dinner for myself at mid night (2:00 AM) lol , I had 2 meals today , i know it sounds so weird but literally i had no energy to even eat back then even eating feels like real heavy task so really for me this is a great achievement and i am happy for this now .. and i refill all the water bottles and i know i am gonna sound gross but yehh I hadn't even combed my hairs in days but i did it just right now and i kinda feel good.. I know i might sound gross to all of u or that they are so basic things but when u have spend days just crying or harming urself and just wanted to become motionless when even doing a simple chore feels like a ride or die thing it mattered and yeh i did it today and i am feeling relaxed and happy and good 😇👍
@Jyotik005
It's not disgusting
It's a big deal, and when you are struggling, easy to overlook.
So you achieved this and you have a right to be proud 🩷
@Amanda84 thanks
@Jyotik005
A pleasure 💜
@Jyotik005
You've doing good👍
Congratulations! ✨️
Doing things you gotta do are valid and we support you here!
Everybody doesn't comb their hair sometimes, anyways i'm bald, your lucky just to have hair!!🌲
@AsherTree thanks 😇
@Jyotik005 I totally get you on the not combing your hair part. Some days I get so depressed that brushing my hair or showering can be too large of a task. Take it one step at a time. Wish you the best.
@quietSummer620 yeh , thanks for understanding 😇
@Jyotik005
It's not discussing at all!! It's a step forward, and it's important to recognize improvement. Even if it's small it's still a sign of healing and I'm so happy that you've taken this step forward. Hopefully you will slowly take a few more steps to heal and to happiness! 🫂❤️
@aquaLion1074
Disgusting* it's not disgusting at all*
@aquaLion1074 yeh , thank u 😇
@Jyotik005 You are truly a great person! You know your pain, and you know that you can be proud of the fact that you are going through it without giving up. And that is the truth. Wishing you peacful days!
You are really strong🙂
@Kardi thank u , but i don't feel like strong at all i want to have a hopeto live but i am not even able tofind one and i feel so overwhelmed over it ..why can't i have even one thing to live for
@Jyotik005 It's okay, I know. Even if you don’t feel strong, the fact that you’re still here and sharing proves otherwise. And I understand how you feel about all of this, and I’m really sorry. But if you have nothing tolive for, it’s not a problem either, no matter how I sound now🤨. You’re here now, which means you’re trying to hold on and find it. Which means it’s there when you do. I think.
