I don't know what my problem is exactly
Hi,
I have been feeling lonely for as long as I remember. I might be suffering from depression. Although I have friends and a girlfriend, I still feel this way, which makes me feel even worse because I don't have a valid reason to be feeling this way. I'm very ashamed of myself because of this. I also have a decent paying job and I don't struggle financially. Sometimes it gets really bad and I have some very negative thoughts that are hard to cope with. I have tried everything: therapy and meds but they didn't really help. I am scared of meds because I'm afraid to get addicted. And therapy is expensive. I am afraid to tell anyone in real life because. I am pretty desperate, don't know what to do.
@turquoiseKitten1909
It sucks when on the outside to others we look like we have it Good ..... friends / decent job and Partner ........ some do not have that so we are like why is this not doing it for me? but we just feel numb to it.... like it just does not matter.... We are not sure why and what it is...but something is missing
Therapy only helps if you know what you need to work on .......no one is going to reach into your mind and say "hey this is what it is" ........ Also very expensive to be a wild goose chase of them guessing... meds only mask it.....
Have you really looked inward and thought of a bucket list sort of thing to try new things/ experiences until you feel that spark of curiosity the excitement of what if and such.... some find this in travel and immersing themselves in challenges to learns new things..... sometimes it is something you have not thought of doing.... example i tried several jobs i was good at paid well etc but they were ugh .... i took job in something i thought i would just be doing in the mean time and it clicked i am happier and not dreading going etc.... on paper $$$ etc does not look as good as what i had last but the feeling inside is right. the more experience you have the more likely to find the thing that clicks
