I feel so lonely...

I am going to sya everything here i couldn't say to my father directly.

Papa, I understand you're worried because of last year. I know I need to prove that I'm serious. But if every time I come outside you tell me I'm wasting time, I start feeling like I'm not allowed to rest or talk to anyone. I want to follow a fixed schedule. During my study blocks I'll study seriously, and during my breaks I need you to let me actually take the break. Please judge me by whether I follow the schedule over a week, not by whether I'm sitting at my desk every minute.

I don't want to feel trapped inside this room Papa