I have a question
this might be a little dark but recently i have just been wanting to di# and i don't know why like i have no reason too its just i want to and i have just been getting hit with just random waves of sadness and like i would most likely never do it for the sake of my family and friends and i don't know why i want to di# just for some reason i keep telling myself too like is this a normal thing or am i just a loss cause at this point
@versatileLemon9181 youre not a lost cause for sure 🤍 sometimes we get feelings or urges that seem unnecessary/unexplained. That doesnt make what youre going through any less valid. Is there anyone irl you trust who you can reach out to regarding these urges?
@unassumingEyes no because I don’t want my parents to know and I definitely don’t want my sister to know either and there’s no one around me I would want to tell about this
@versatileLemon9181 i can understand that :/ that sounds like a lot, dealing with it alone. Dyou have any idea what started the thoughts? Maybe theres something upsetting you that you didnt connect to these feelings?
I hope we can be of some help 🤍
@unassumingEyes what I rember was I was at work just checking people out and I was listening to plage Coquillage by Tao Mon amour and I know music effects my mood but this song hit me and all of sudden I just feel sad and emotional less and I am just wanting to dię and I am just sitting there feeling the urge to just end and I don’t know why and since than which was like 2 and half weeks ago I will just randomly get sad and upset and just imagine myslef sh@@ting myslef and it dose not help the fact I have 3 loaded guns in my room and there have been time where I will just stare at it for hours like I doubt I would ever do it it’s just the fact I am even thinking about it is what freaks me out because what if one day all my friends leave me and my family makes me mad than nothing will be stopping me because I lack the empathy for those people to stay alive for
@versatileLemon9181 i see :/ it does seem like it came out of nowhere. Could you get rid of the guns in your room for now, or at least unload them as a precaution? I hope you wont ever be put in such a situation as to make that choice. You seem like a good person, and the world definitely needs those.
@unassumingEyes I appreciate the compliment and I hope so to, I will unload them can’t take them out because my parents would question it and I hope they never find out because I don’t want to scare them or freak them out and tbh I would rather be dead than have to have that conversation with them
@versatileLemon9181 unloading them is a step. I completely understand avoiding that conversation, its always difficult and even more so with parents.
do you think there’s anything else that could help you cope with such feelings? Like journaling, or spending time with friends, or even talking about it on here more often? Coping comes in different shapes and ways, and without professional help, its really the best we’ve got
@unassumingEyes hmmm well journaling is out of the question because that can be found I only really talk with my online friends so spending more time on here sounds like that would not be to bad but what would I even do?
@versatileLemon9181
Well, i dont know your age so im not sure if your in the adult side of 7cups or the teen side, but generally speaking, there are some pretty cool people to meet hanging around in the group chats. 7cups also has a private journalling feature (in your profile, you must have seen it!) if you want to give journalling a try- or even, theres a journalling community in the forums for you to have a public journal (i have two there myself)
Theres penpals community, which is as the name says. Hobbies zone, poetry, arts and craft, religion and spirituality, around the world- seriously, if you have some interests, others on cups will definitely be sharing them
And it can help, either as a distraction or in the way a good friend does.
Ofcourse, all of the above is ignoring you trying out talking to a listener, or paying for the online therapy feature.
Or, you know, we could keep up with this thread, too. Im always going to reply, and maybe thatll ease some of the struggle 🤷♀️
Its not a solution, but it is company 🤷♀️
@unassumingEyes I appreciate the advice I am on the teen side of things and the reason I don’t pay for the online stuff is my parents check all my purchases and other things like that I did not there was journaling feature on here and you mentioned there’s a lot of different communities so I will check them out
@versatileLemon9181 i see. Im also on the teen side. I hope you find something that helps 🤍
@unassumingEyes thank you and I hope the same for you to
@unassumingEyes also thank you for talking with me
Hey, I am not on the teen side anymore, but the mere fact that you tried this means you are a good person struggling. Wr all have struggles, and I have experienced some of yours before. Today is my first day here and it seems like there are great people here, including you. We are all proud of you for reaching out, as it is difficult!
While I am not a vet, I have a closed friend who is who once said (and I have seen it elsewhere too), "I would rather hear about your problems any day than read that you are gone."
It really looks like people are here to help. Keep up the great work, even if it is just the beginning, and I'm here if needed!
