Last couple years took a toll on me

Hello, I am new here. I have been suffering from depression and anxiety for decades now but the last two years took a large toll on me and I have had issues controlling them again.

It started when I broke my wrist and elbow last year and had to have surgery. During recovering from that I was stuck home alone for months in a fugue state. My friends at the time that I was very close with started to talk to me less and didn't seem to want to hang out as much. As I was getting my self back I got covid and it hit me hard for a bit. I finally recovered from that tried to get my life back in order. But things were different. Not only was I different but like I mentioned my friends were different.

As I was recovering, March of this year I started having multiple health issues. I started the journey to figure out what was happening and in the end found out that a large part of the issue was very low oxygen levels in my sleep. I have since got things to help with that but it still needs work. I also found I had white matter damage. Likely from multiple things but some could have been the oxygen issues.

But a side effect of the low oxygen was that most of the year I was in a bad brain fog and couldn't think right. And was becoming my more more isolated as those friends talked less and less to me.

In the end the last couple months I have been able to finally think again, not much brain fog. I have been able to look back on the last two years and everything that I can remember. I tried taking to my friends about feeling like I was pushed away and them not wanting to do things but I never have been good at those conversations and in the end things didn't go great. I feel like we went from best friends to just seeing each other at group events with other friends.

I have become very frustrated, annoyed, tired, depressed, feeling very alone and more. I am trying to get help; therapy, different meds and more. But it is taking time and I just am tired.

So I am posting here as a means to just get things out for now.