Maybe I just to vent?
Depression is kicking me hard the last few weeks. Between the fights with the family and my kiddo (pre teen and puberty plus ADHD issues) I destroyed the possible relationship I had with someone I really really liked and cared for. The thoughts swimming around that no one needs to hear or put up with me, my kiddo doesn't need this he can have a better life to I can't do anything right. Family just uses and abuses me and then yell and belittle me when I say no I've had enough I'm not doing this. I used him away thinking he doesn't deserve to deal or hear how hard things are going when he's fighting his own inner demons. I'm scared to get help cause years ago I had something unrelated happen and was almost committed to a psych ward (again family is to blame for that one) so I'm worried a counsellor will tell me I'm too messed up I'm not gonna get help I'm just gonna get thrown in a jail and forgot about. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep and sleeping all the time the demons that keep me awake at night just I'm a mess and I'm scared to get help. I've deleted and re wrote this post so many times before I even hit the purplish I'm just tired of it all
@powerfulTriangle7574
Man! I wish I could give you a hug! You sound so miserable and lonely and desperately in need of a friend.
It is totally fine to vent. Everyone needs to vent sometimes. Just so sad you have no one you trust to vent to.
You are totally safe here. No one knows who you are, or where you are from. I hope you find this a safe place to feel a little less alone.
I recommend listeners. There you can have a 121 private conversation with someone. They aren't counsellors, just normal people like you and me. Often people who have been through stuff themselves and want to help others.
But whatever you decide, I hope sharing here helped you a little and I hope things get a little happier for you.
You deserve to be heard, just as much as the next person.
Best wishes
