Psychiatrist appointment wasn’t helpful.
I had another appointment with my psychiatrist today. It was honestly not worth it. I disabled the laptop camera because I just didn’t want to be seen like this. Her opening question was “what’re we gonna do?” And that tells me she’s at a loss. I wasn’t able to tell her a lot of things or answer the way she wanted.
• She asked how the Abilify was doing for me, and I said it wasn’t working, I was unable to tell her that I hadn’t bought it after two weeks after she gave it to me.
• She asked for me to explain how hopeless I was, and I said I was afraid to answer, which she said was valid.
• She kept encouraging hospitalization, but at the same time said that it probably wouldn’t help and might make it worse. I didn’t have the heart to say I would rather “vanish” than be back in the psych ward.
So that’s it. Here I am still dead in the water and all she told me was “hold on” as well as increase my dosage of Abilify. Another failure for the system. I don’t know how much longer I can stay like this.
@generousKitten6660
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I'm genuinely so sorry it's not helping and you are getting the support and the answers that you need.
It's natural it would be exhausting but please be gentle on yourself, you are not alone here 💜 💕
@generousKitten6660 If it helps, im on abilify too. Also not feeling good from it. I think this is my sixth med in the past half year that hasn't worked. Ive never had a med that worked for me. I, too, feel hopeless, and cant bring myself to tell my psychiatrist much. I hope you feel better, maybe the increase of dose could help?
@generousKitten6660 finding the right counselor is difficult. First of all, if your feel that your current counselor is not helping you then you need to look at changing counselors. Second, you need to try to be a little more cooperative with your counselor. I don't say this to be mean to you, I say it because you have to do the hard work to make yourself feel better. A counselor can only do so much for you. Third, medication is a tricky thing. I've been on medication for most of my life (since I was 18). Medication takes time to work. Also the first medication you try may not be the one for you. You may have to try many different medication before you find the one that works for you. It is a frustrating game of trial and error. My advice is keep some notes when you start taking a new medication. If you have any side effects write those down and tell your doctor. Some side effects may be ones you can live with and some may be more serious and require either adjusting the dose or changing medication.
As I was telling someone else in another thread, there are plenty of good resources on this website including mindfulness exercises. A good book you can read is called Feeling Good by Dr. David Burns.
Try your best to use the resources that you have to your advantage to help you.
I hope you found this helpful.
