Struggling with loneliness , stress and a lot more

Hey! I'm a student. I had to discontinue a course which I had been pursuing since 2019.. it wasn't out of my interest that I chose that particular course. My family wanted me to follow that career path so l did it for them. But eventually I felt so pressured and stressed that I couldn't do it anymore. Also, I'm not so close with my family. I've grown distant with them cos of the way they treated me since childhood. I don't feel comfortable sharing stuffs that's happening with me to them cos all they do is misunderstand me and demotivate me if I'm doing something that's against their likings. They have never let me do the things I love.

Now I feel less confident and scared thinking whether l'll be able to make it if I choose another course in future, purely out of my interest.

Because my parents are telling me that I won't be able to succeed there too.. long story short, my parents are the main reason why I’ve become so insecure about myself. Cos all they do is point out only my mistakes and never really appreciate the good things I do. Puts me down In front of others not thinking how I feel. Destroying even the bit of positivity in me. Telling me stuffs like they wish they didn’t have a daughter like me and how I’m a burden and shame for them. Honestly I feel like I should just give up because I don’t see that my existence is making anyone happy here