You’re the child they never had to worry about
A baby will stop crying eventually once they realize that nobody is coming . That doesn’t mean that they don’t need someone .
@Scorp00 Sometimes all we need is a little comforting no matter what our age is but it can be harder to ask for as we get older
It's nice to meet you! Welcome to 7 Cups :) How are you Scorp?
Not that great . I wish I could explain it all
@Scorp00 I'm sorry to hear things aren't too great. You're welcome to share as much as you like here in the forums. We do try to keep things from getting too graphic. Or If you'd rather you can always try a listener or maybe a chat group. No pressure though what ever you feel comfortable with
I did try to do both these things but that they didn’t work out that great . I talk in group chats and I kinda feel ignored and with the one on ones , everyone just isn’t giving the energy I need . For now I guess I’ll just post here one day at a time and hope that somebody can change my perspective on things one day .
@Scorp00 Oh man I'm sorry that happened. The chat rooms can be a little off putting sometimes. The sharing circle is supposed to be pretty good but they do give a time limit to how long you have each time. I always sort of prefer the forums because there's no pressure or time limit
One day at is all we really can do. If you don't mind I'll follow along on your journey :)
Yea totally , i appreciate your kindness . It definitely doesn’t go unnoticed. I wish I felt connected enough to the world to where kindness was enough to make me wanna be here
@Scorp00 It can be hard to find connections. Sometimes we have to search for things that just help us get through the bad moments and go moment to moment. Sometimes we just need someone to listen or even just have someone care that we're hurting. I don't know you but I do care. Let's just get through this moment right here ok?
Right. One step at a time .
@Scorp00 How long have you been battling depression? Do you see a therapist or counselor for it? Are you actively suicidal? Because if you are please call a hotline and talk to someone. We can only talk about ideation here and even that can be pushing it. Are you safe right now?
Yes I’m okay . I’ve been dealing with depression for like 12 years . I’m not actively suicidal. Like you said , just ideation , a lot . I just recently got back into therapy again because I noticed it’s getting bad . My therapist can’t be there to hold my hand through life and every second of the second I feel like I’m going crazy
@Scorp00 That's a long time. I'm sorry you've been battling it for so long but super proud that you recognized it was getting worse and went to a therapist. You're right a therapist can't hold your hand all the time - having extra support you can turn to is never a bad thing
Yea it started young , ofc there might’ve been some gaps in between where I felt like I was cruising through life and managing well but then boom , my brain says “that was cool but , uh, we don’t really need to be here “
@Scorp00 Brains do have a way of telling us things like that. It sure doesn't make things any easier
