feeling ok today
for the first time in about a month, i don’t feel an overwhelming sense of misery permeating me! today i was able to communicate honestly with someone i care about without crying or breaking down, prepare a simple but real meal, and even go for a walk!!
some parts of the day were bad, yes, but as of writing this? i don’t feel utterly miserable and defeated, and that’s so so huge for me. i can even see myself making it to the end of this month and into the next one. i haven’t felt that way in ages.
all this being said, i want to tell all of you guys that what you’re feeling right now isn’t forever. there are going to be ups as well as downs. i can’t guarantee how i’ll feel tomorrow, but what i will remember is how i felt today. not ecstatic, not even necessarily happy, but okay. that is a huge accomplishment, and it’s worth celebrating!!
so please hold on, and see how you feel tomorrow. i swear it’s worth it
@twocozy thanks for sharing!
I really think this is huge. Just feeling okay is a massive change from feeling miserable and defeated. I think if the lights go out again, you'll be able to reflect on this moment and draw hope from it.
I'm glad you posted about this, as you now have some proof that things aren't always so bad. It's so hard to believe others when they say things will get better. It comes across as misunderstanding often times. It kind of says they can't understand your pain.
I hope you can continue to find ways to feel okay. Don't beat yourself up if you can't find happiness or you find yourself in the dark again. Who knows how these things work, the brain really is mysterious. Hold your own hand on this journey, and keep reaching out and sharing your story. The ups, the downs, the mundane, the profound. Connect and understand and you will surely grow.
Stay strong, but be kind to yourself.
