miserably lonely right now

hey everybody, hope you’re all safe and healthy.

don’t have much to say other than i’m feeling more lonely than ever right now. it’s like weirdly unbearable though. i often have a lingering loneliness, but right now it feels so bad that i just have to write about it here just for some interaction. i can’t even find the words to explain how insanely hungry and desperate i am for fulfilling human interaction, something that doesn’t leave me feeling emptier or frustrated afterwards. there’s a lot i could get off my chest right now but i can’t find the strength or energy to do so. or perhaps i simply don’t want to. i just feel like i’ve put myself in a very difficult and bleak position in life and i feel sort of disgusted and very distant from every person ever.