supposedly meet with my old friends
it's been a long time since we could all met as one group, but I decided not to go because I suddenly feel so sad 😭😭
I don't think I'll be able to listen to their awesome stories about going to big cities with a smile on my face today, I feel so sad. Because this friendship, feels far like we dont really care about each other anymore and suddenly they want to meet 🥲😭I have no cool stories to be shared to them, and I'm tired of fake smiling.
None of them were there when I was depressed, not even one chat because they didn't know I was so sad . That's why I don't wanna go meet them, I know I will regret this but I don't feel happy right now and I'm afraid I'll cry even more when I'm with them because of this sadness
@hopefulencounter
I'm sad to read that you don't feel able tell or show your friends that you are struggling. I would want my friends to tell me if they needed some support. What about you, would you prefer someone asked you for help, or kept silent?
Of course, it's extra hard to tell a whole group. What about telling one, and asking them whether you should go or not? Sometimes when we share, we give others permission to also share. And suddenly we find out that those lives that seemed perfect, aren't so perfect after all.
But most of all, do what feels right to you in the moment. Sometimes we all just need a bit of self care time to ourselves.
@Clio9876 I actually wanted to tell them but afraid of what they'd think of me ;(
compared to them, I'm the only one with 0 achievement, I feel like I shouldn't complain about life with them. Back then, one of them ever made fun of me , she said something like "why everyone is so depressed these days?" and she ever told me "if you need something i'll be there" but most of the time she's absent. What I need is just for them to reply to my chats 😬
usually it's them who cancelled plans to meet up, but yesterday it's me who didn't participate in that reunion. 🥲