why cant I see

my mental calendar only goes thirty minutes from now. Usually its: next week doesn't even exist until I get there. It's been like this for months, I just make it to the end of the week and then start another one that ends in "time ends here", repeat

I can't even think past Sunday at the end of each week 

But today I can't think past thirty minutes out

Like no planning, no thinking about what I'm doing next week, work schedule, holidays, etc

It caused Halloween to sneak up on m and while I still had fun, it didn't feel like it because I wasn't excited for it for a month like I usually am

My coworker just asked if I could trade shifts with him tomorrow and I absolutely froze and didn't answer for hours and finally had to tell him I'd give him an answer later today. It's really frustrating

can someone answer?

whenever i post it just gets lost or ignored and i don't know what to do for help anymore because I can't do listeners, my time on any device is short and disconnected, live chats are difficult for that same reason, and forum posts.. I just feel ignored. my last post has gotten no answers and that's happening with a lot of people I think, this is unrelated but don't just go for the forum posts with interesting titles of you're looking to advise or listen to someone

thank you