Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

For once I feel okay. It's my birthday today and my friends showed how much they care about me when I feel so alone. That will change tomorrow but today is okay so far.

Like I really don't want to have to go on. Please don't make me...

I feel like I'm walking on a long rope above a stormy sea. And I don't know how to swim

I feel over whelmed . I feel like everyone has put me on this high expectation that I simply cannot reach . I feel like I'm drowning and everyone is watching expecting me to be able to get myself together on my own while having to do everything they give me and reach all these expectations that they have . If i can't help myself then I fail. I die . But if I keep staying in this position I will want to die . I have no other options . Either I fail for myself or I fail for everyone else .

depressed, scared, alone, sad....

I feel like a waste of space

I feel so old and I haven't accomplished anything

I feel lonely.

I feel scared.

I feel numb.

I have too many secrets.

Im lonely but I like being alone which confuses me.

I feel like I was born in the wrong world or time period.

I never feel like I belong anywhere.

I feel worthless. Sad. I don't exactly understand how I got to this point. I hate myself for even feeling this way, but I can't help it. My husband thinks I'm stupid and just want attention. I'm tired of feeling this way.

I feel i want to go to the roof, sit on the edge, cloae my eyes and lean back.