Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel like a disappointment.

In all honesty, today went very well.

I feel overwhelmed. My mind keeps telling me all of these things I don't want to hear and my family wants me to be around them all the time and I just feel like I'm drowning. I don't know where to go to for help, so I came here, to this app. It's been helpful, and I'm trying to be positive, but it's... difficult to say the least.

I'm on the road to recovery

Really thought I was doing okay for a while, but maybe that was just me not acknowledging my feelings. Now I'm a complete mess in every way, screaming for a way out. Every day has been a struggle to get out of bed, and if I didn't have obligations like school and work, I wouldn't get out of bed. I don't know, I feel like it's another bottle of alcohol that will save me from this pain tonight...

feeling like life isn't as good without him around.

I haven't dealt with any of my problems which have been building up for years now, I've isolated myself , it's really hard to get ahold of me so I talk to no one and my thoughts are dark most the time .

That I'm unloved and unwanted. I know I'm a nice guy but just everyone has hurt me and made me feel worthless and pathetic. Even though I have overcome sexual abuse it's just now my parents make me feel unwanted and that they're just trying to control me and keep me lonely and unwanted by anyone

Lonely.

Idk. I feel like I kinda just want everything to be over. I have my boyfriend who is always there for me and I love him to death but I'm already failing 2-3 classes and since they're honors I'll be kicked out. I just don't see the point anymore. I know things will get better but then they'll get worse again. (Bipolar Depression)