Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I need help, can't keep living like this, alone, with no hope for the future and no reason to live. I've tried to push forward but it's too much now.

I feel empty. Like there's no sadness anymore. Like I don't feel anything other than angry. I'm angry at everything and everyone. I'm even angrier that people don't realize that I'm not trying to be this way. I don't know how to explain to them and they wouldn't listen to it in the first place. I feel like today all they care about is pushing my problems under the carpet and forgetting about it until it's too big of a problem to hide.

Calmer than I was yesterday

i feel hopeful that I will actually enjoy my day off

Feeling low, all the time. Sometimes lower than others, but even on good days, things only get so good, and then they stop. I feel like I have to keep up an image that everything is okay, but it really isn't.

I feel that I'm being used by my family and friend which makes me feel even more alone.

like I want to vomit.

I feel shaky

I want to cry.

I want to scream.

I feel like telling him to go f@#% himself.

I just wanted to be loved.

I feel like i wanna cut off this disgusting fat off of myself...

I feel like i wanna break up with my fiancé because all he cares about is his OWN feelings what HE is dealing with...

Does anybody ever even stop to wondering how i am feeling? How am i dealing with all the stress of being there for someone with panic disorder with agoraphobia + my pregnancy + giving birth + taking care of a baby on my own with nobody to even tell me what to do and how to do it + postpartum depression + gaining weight + trying to get thru every single fucking day without just drinking a bunch of pills and just ending everything...just shut it off....just stop crying....

I feel like running away. Then I feel like a terrible person for wanting to walk out on my baby, dogs, and husband.

I feel like I need a drink. I try not to because when I start drinking I keep drinking and it becomes a daily activity.

I feel like a failure because I'm so bad at coping with life.

I'm feeling slightly pissed off today, and a lot of different mixture of emotions...

My workplace had phoned me up, notifying my changes of times the very last minute, which kind of set me off since it had suddenly been thrown in my face.

another thing; around two weeks ago, my boyfriend had broken up with me the second time. Yes, this was the second time he did this to me. Of course, I felt devastated, but not as much as very first time.

The saddest thing that had occurred to me was the fact that we were extremely close friends beforehand, and that we shared different interests. I did offered a re-newed friendship to him, but he refused as he was experiencing overwhelming guilt of breaking up with me, I guess. Now that friendship is forever lost...