When I don't have many friends to talk with or understand me, I feel really isolated as all I do is go home and work and sleep. I wish I had actual decent friends that won't take advantage of me and helps me be included. 
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I feel everyone just tolerates me if even that.
In the last 5 years I have felt nothing but hated, shunned, judged, barely acceptable, tolerated, and the real sad part is it's most likely all bullcrap but yet anxiety and depression make me feel this way, all because of the mistakes I have made in my.life.
I'm not even allowed to talk to or even try to reconcile with my best friends because they won't stop ghosting/shunning me and apparently my mistakes are for the most part unforgivable to them :(
When I'm not even allowed to show emotion (I'm a guy) or get excited about anything bc it sadly is considered annoying and pushes everyone away :(
When I am "really" alone...have you tried to imagine an astrobaut in the the dark side of the moon orbit? No communication, no companion, just the vastness of space...himself and the universe whatecer it is...that is loneliness...
I look at Facebook. What am I even looking for? I only post to seek validation from people who would never reach out to me (every single one of my so called Facebook friends). I try not to post anything passive aggressive but sometimes I get creative.
when I feel ignored or neglected by friends or there's something that I'd like to share but I can't share it with everyone
When I have friends to talk to but those who mean the most to me aren't available to talk to me.
I see "friends" and family on social media oit and about together. I don't get invited to do much anymore by anyone. As I am someone who is still only going out maybe 2-3 days a week, quarantining has amplified my loneliness.
When I know I do have some people in my life I could talk to but I still push them away, and realise that if I'm alone it's my own fault but I just can't help pushing people away.
When I need someone to understand me, but I can't gather the strength to reach out because I know they won't.
@PhaedrusMaynard I feel that. But you are most amazing person you will ever see. Have faith in yourself and remember, you are your expert and I am always there for you. I believe in you. The more you will know yourself, the better you will feel😊