I'm trying so hard to kick this.

I'm a 19 year old....I pretty much have been isolated my whole life due to religious reasons.My parents hate secular schools,secular science,secular music,secular movies,and worst of all,anything that contradictions them.Normally I am happy go lucky,do my school,keep my room at a decent level of organization.I live with my folks,but I'm pretty much alone.My parents decided 4 of my 5 siblings are bad influences and I am not allowed to talk to them.Recently I found a boyfriend that they don't know about,whom I sneak out to see,and will be moving in with soon.The only problem,I can barely relate to him,he tries his best,.He can't always be there for me at 4 am when I'm feeling alone,and like nothing will ever change.I've gotten to the point where I barely do anything of any value....aka,congratulations...you took a shower,day over.We rarely leave the house,and it's not really an option.It's been getting to me,so I fall asleep when the sun comes up,get up at 3 am.My bedroom and schooling is a disaster,and I'm starting to feel powerless to fight the tiredness.I was never taught about how to have friends, not freak out when I'm around people.My man is a hard worker,good with people, and has an incredibly high iq. He says I have proven to be a good person,smart,funny.I on the other hand realize I have nothing to offer him back if I keep falling in this slump.If I don't pull through,nothing will change.I will take advice. :)