I need help

@Wackystack1421

Thank you for your courage and the bravery it took to come and share the most sensitive and vulnerable areas of you. You are carrying a heavy emotional load that is presenting many challenges and distress in your life and thought patterns. However, you haven't given yourself credit for what you've just done. You not only acknowledged you needed it, but you also asked for help. That is huge! Those 3 small words were the largest step you could have taken to begin your journey of "unpacking" and becoming healthier and more fulfilled. You are a worthy individual who deserves the desires of your heart; while also discovering all the great strengths, skills, and attributes that live within you. I encourage you to continue to share and gain the support of your peers and if you would like more one on one support connect with a therapist as well.

@Wackystack1421 Nobody deserves pain. It just happens in our lives.

I know it is difficult not to blame yourself for making some mistakes but nobody acts "right" 100% times. It is OK to want love, it is OK to want support and help. You deserve them! You may feel like these pain and despair will last forever but trust me it gets better!

@Wackystack1421

Hey there, lovely I've had depression for many years, and it makes it very difficult to interact with others, and sometimes, I lose people because of it. I know what it's like to not have the energy to talk to my family or my friends, to leave people waiting, to cancel on friends, to lash out because I'm tired and irritable. Losing people hurts so badly, and it's never an easy thing to have to go through. I know that it's not easy, but I also know that depression lies. Depression lied to me, told me that I was worthless, unloveable, and a waste of space. It told me that my friends and family had given up on me because of all my mistakes. But what I learned and am still learning is that they haven't given up on me. We all make mistakes. We break things, and we sometimes hurt others. But there are always people there for you, and sometimes, they'll surprise you. When I started feeling better and reaching back out again, people were really happy to hear from me, and it felt nice to know that all the things I had worried about in my head weren't quite as bad as I had thought they were.

I'm not saying that it's easy, because it never is. I'll be fighting every day against my depression, and sometimes, I will struggle to talk to other people, or to show them that I love them, so that they'll love me back. But you don't have to do it alone. We are here for you, to support you, to help you out. You can always talk to the people here, or just start small talk with friends over email, or anything like that I don't know if this helped, but I send you love and positivity and hugs! Feel free to talk to me anytime

@Wackystack1421 I am so, so sorry that you are going through this pain and loneliness. It's awful how many of us have to go through this even though we don't deserve it. No one deserves pain, but be all deserve love, no matter who we are or what mistakes we have made. We are all human and we will make mistakes. What is important is that we keep going, keep trying, learn from our mistakes and just try our best. And believe me your best is good enough even if it feels like you are failing right now. Just the fact that you are here, reaching out and asking for help already makes you awesome because as long as you reach out you are still trying ♥ We are all here for you, through the good times and the bad.

Im scared of myself

Sometimes its like i cant stay strong. I break down and cry, and have negative thoughts. But at the end of the day, no one will notice a thing, because I'll always know how to fake a smile. Im so broken it had became obvious. Im emotionally destroyed and there's nothing any one can do except watch me fall apart. each day it gets worse nothing ever gets better. Im so alone in this world besides you and it's starting to get to me. I always have to remind myself that it's my fault for people not liking me. It's all my fault. I'm fat and I'm ugly. There's no one to blame but myself. It's so hard because no one knows the real me. No one knows what i have to deal with on a daily basis. No one knows nothing about me. They know me as a buddy, outgoing, happy girl but that's not even close to what i am. That's just an act. Just a lie. People always tell me to "get over it" but how could i get over something so cruel. I will NEVER get over all of the bullying and words said to me. I will never forget the pain that I'm in. I will never forget the nights i was in so much deep pain that i had to grab a razor and glide it across my wrist just so i could get the pain i deserved. I'll never forget the nights i shoved a finger down my throat to make me thin. I won't forget all the days that i decided only a bowl of oatmeal was the right amount to eat a day. I'll never forget the day my mom first packed up get shit and left me my sister's and jr alone. I'll never forget the nights i cried myself to sleep with no one to tell me it's ok. I won't forget the 20+ cuts and scratches on my body that i did because i was so sad. I don't want to get told to "get over it" when they know nothing. Do they think i like being sad? No i don't but this sadness is basically all i have. This sadness has consumed me. And it's to late to save me from it. Im young and I'm hopeless... Im lost and i know this... Im going nowhere fast....that's what they say....Im troublesome, I've fallen.... Im angry at ev

Hey wacky I am sorry you have to go through this. It is difficult out there. But you are not alone. We all are there to support you and you can always count on us.