One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}
some days, like this day, i just get sad and annoyed all day long over absolutely nothing. sigh
Nothing. Today is the first time i can say that everything went well :) <3
Im sad because I finally have a boyfriend who lovessel me, who does everything for me. Is so funny, so self-less, but I can't feel like I deserve his love. I love him, but every second I spend with him I'm wraking my brain, tormenting myself with questions of how could he love me? How could anyone love me? I'm so ugly, I'm so stupid and worthless, how could anyone be attracted to me, let alone love me? It's gotten so bad that last night I cheated on him. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I can't accept someone's love, but I still have a need for an intimate relationship. So someone that offers sex without love I can understand. I can feel like I deserve at least that. I don't deserve someone's love, but an intimate relationship with someone, anyone, even if it's only for one night, can make sense in my brain. Or maybe I'm subconsciously hoping to lose my boyfriend to stop the cycle of feeling unworthy. I can't even fully put the feeling into words, I want to say it's almost a guilty feeling, like I'm getting something I don't deserve, like I'm stealing something. But even those are not quite the rigt words to describe the feeling. But thats how I'm feeling, that's why I'm sad. How can someone be in a perfect relationship, with an incredible boyfriend, but still be so unhappy?
That i cant Feel alive. There is only sadness and lonelyness. I dont understand why i cant Feel some positive Feelings.
I'm sad because my mom won't stop yelling and getting angry. Today it's worst then most
@MusicGeekdotcom I understand how you suffer right now, ive have a similar mom as you and get over with the yelling everyday
@anonymous0211 *cant get over
My boyfriends mother is keeping us apart because I am rude and disrespectful (she is also 7 months pregnant) but she has been mean to me a lot recently but now he is saying he just doesnt want a relationship right now but we have been together for over two years and he said he loves me and cares for me but dont want this anymore. Ive told him that before and he brought me back so Im not giving up on us but it hurts so much and I already have so many issues on my plate and now this. I just havent felt happy in a while and I dont know what to do.
I'm a piece of shit. All I do is hurt and annoy people. I should be executed.
@tluper6491
I'm not suicidal, please don't worry.
@tluper6491 I feel u. Honestly no one genuinely believes I can do anything right and I
@tluper6491
I sometimes feel the same way, I feel like Im invisible sometimes, even with my own family. When I find people who like me, I tend to be anoying because I feel like I should express everything I never expressed before, and it can be really anoying and most of the people I know dont really like me, Ive lost so many friends and relationships because of my emotional unbalance. To overcome this emotions I separated myself from everyone and focused more on the things I like (even though is not a good idea) but I believe that if my social life is not the best I should invest my life in something else.
I feel bad about how I have been in the past. I over react over my emotions in the past.
I'm sad that I have no idea who I am. My bipolar depression keeps catching me when I least expect it and I am constantly afraid that today will be a bad day or that I'll feel gender dysphoria. I feel like such a mess. I always told myself that I would be "normal" and never have issues with myself, but I can't even feel comfortable with my own name. I feel like I'm crazy sometimes and the thought makes me want to cry.
I dont like the person I am. I am referring to the person you meet when you talk to me. I cant relax and be myself. I feel like Im being fake and when I try to relax i cant think of anything to say and its stressing me.