One thing I am feeling sad about today is....{share here}

I'm really lonely and self-loathing.

...not having a girlfriend

That today was just an off day for me.

I had a breakdown last night and it makes me worried about relapse or negatively impacting important relationships in my life

Having to lose my 9 year long partner, future wife beacuse i was carried away by sex and pleasure, didnt appreaciate her, now im losimg the love of my life

That things in my life are falling apart. And I

That someone important to me hurt me emotionally, I don't not blame them because of their circumstances, but it is painful for me:(

That the guy I care about is pushing me away "while he works through this episode" even when he promised to try not to. I feel like its me that is the problem but he did warn me this is how he gets... its so hard.

I miss my ex. I know I am better off without her but I still love her. I just want the pain to go away. She hurt me worse than anyone ever has. Why can't I get her out of my head. It's been a month. I can't eat, sleep or think. This is so dumb.

Another wasted day of me just sitting around all day doing nothing for my mental health. My mind is deteriorating slowly