One word to describe my depression today is...
In spite of being too loving caring understanding and forgiving when my sibkings go narciasistic and torture me for years and make other family members against me, what and how should i feel? i feel that....
@silentdaisy12
Yes, I can empathize with having a dysfunctional family. Ideally, people should feel good, right? I mean that's the natural response. If something hurts, it's usually bad. Although some body functions naturally hurt, and I never understood why God did that. Any under normal circumstances, if you injured, it feels bad. If you are not injured and getting what you need, it feels good.
So, I would say that you feel what is appropriate to your circumstances. I don't think it's reasonable to expect a creature that is undergoing abuse from another creature to feel 'okay' about it in any way. I'm faulted, what feels like frequently, for not being 'happy' while taking abuse. I hope you are not faulted for feeling how you do.
hopeless
@Darkseed
One of the most popular words in my personal dictionary unfortunately. However, I've been recently trying (strong ephasis on trying) to realize that there is indeed always some sense of hope no matter the situation. It's just a matter of taking the time to see it as oppose to easily tossing it to the side and claiming that it doesn't exist. This has been my issue as of late.
I am new here tonight. 
It hides inside me, like a monster
Just more ravenous with every passing day
Today, my depression feels calm. Like, it's minding it's own business for now, lol
@inkybrowneyes LOL That's funny because that's exactly how I was thinking about it today. Like it's its own entity and it's somewhere over on the couch, eatin' mac n' cheese and watching some nonsense on TV while I'm out taking care of business. You stay home, depression! :p
@SpaceChick @inkybrowneyes
Is your couch big enough that I can just tell my depression to go hang out over there, enjoy some mac & cheese, watch some terrible shows on TV.....and stay there. I can use the long eternal vacation away from it. Hopefully he's not a burden lol.
@SaleemF lol I don't see why not! Yesterday, he was motivated enough to hide out in my car... I have to find a way to make him stay home more often. Maybe letting him know he can have company on the couch would help. :p
@SpaceChick
lol sounds like a plan
Today I am overwhelme with depression
Overwhelming
Depression and anxiety are nagging at me today....uncomfortable, scary feeling!
I constantly feel tired of socializing.
Lost and confused
