Dealing with suicidal thoughts
I have thoughts of hurting myself or killing myself every single day. Sometimes I will picture myself carying the act out, or I will have thoughts that are simiilar to, "I should be dead right now", or "why am I alive?". It gets tiring after awhile. I am not sure what else to do, as I feel it is only so long I can put up with this. I have a history of trauma, so I think that may have something to do with it. I have not seen a psychiatrist, but I went to thereapy a few years ago for famiy issues.
I feel very guilty about these thoughts/feelings as I am a mother and wife. Additionally, I work in healthcare and I feel I should be stronger than this. Any input is appreciated!
@goldenBeach414 I get that feeling. The feeling of not wanting to live. Normally I get hospitalized, when I feel like that, but you should find yourself a therapist. That really helps :)
@EvilRegalsReadToo does going to the hospital help? I wonder sometimes if i should admit myself to get help.
@goldenBeach414 If I'm hospitalized I can't go out or kill myself in any way, they will check up on me often, and there wll be someone to listen to me, if I feel like hell.
@goldenBeach414
Every day I wake up and think, "Damn" I want to be dead. I imagine, as you said. I look for trees when I drive. Every wish I make is to be dead. I fee worthless, I cut, burn, scrape, bruise, whatever I can do to feel real pain.
Its every day. I understand.
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@goldenBeach414 I am sorry to hear this. I also struggle with self harm. It's mostly only thoughts at this point but I used to do it in the past.
