Don't want to die but want to stop existing.
Am I the only one who feels this way? I don't want to die; I'm scared of death. And I don't want people to be affected by it. But I want to stop existing at least for some time - for that time it is as if I was never born.I wish there was a switch I can control any time. At the same time, I want to still 'live'. I want to see the world as a ghost or some sort. Weird, huh?
If anyone can reply with how they did this then woo you've just made my weekend easier! I'm pretty sure I have depression and/or social anxiety. I'm never really sure it could be dysthymia I have no clue! I want to tell my parents I want a test done at the doctors but I don't know how to tell them. Help anyone?
Sorry. I'm too scared to see a specialist in person myself. Which is why I looked for online counseling. So I wouldn't know. I don't think I need to go that far either. However, if you think you need professional help then you should try to get some. But again, I don't have any experience on how to tell your parents and such. Some other users here might be able to help. Good luck.
Please seek professional help. There is no reason to be scared. 7 Cups is great but cannot treat mental health issues. You could have a chemical imbalance in your brain and may need medication and counseling. It is nothing to be ashamed of. People with diabetes take insulin, it is the same thing. Plus, these professionals are use to seeing people like it and it does not phase them one bit. Please make an appt. and then let me know when you did. I am going to hold you accountable. Blessings!
If anyone can reply with how they did this then woo you've just made my weekend easier! I'm pretty sure I have depression and/or social anxiety. I'm never really sure it could be dysthymia I have no clue! I want to tell my parents I want a test done at the doctors but I don't know how to tell them. Help anyone?
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Feel free to private message me anytime. I'd love to help you through this if you'd rather talk about it privately? Well, just let me know. Hope to hear from you soon.
Best Wishes,
Francesca 
Unfortunately a message came up saying I can't talk to adult listeners if they specialisein teens? Have no idea what that means..
Oh, I see. I should have checked. I am so sorry. 
I wasn't aware that you were a teenager.
Teenagers can only talk to teenage listeners or adult listeners who have gone through the verification process to become a teen listener as well. Hopefully that makes sense.
I am working on becoming a teen listener as well currently. In the meantime, you can just request to connect to any teen listener or browse through listeners qualified, and see which ones you like.
I wish you the best of luck! So sorry again!
I think it's cause you talk to over 18's and I'm 15
Yes i know the feeling, i dont want to die but sometimes i wish i could just vanish and not have to face reality, i want to get away sometimes and not be part of life but i still want to be able to live; this makes no sense :(
@secretLemon7087, it makes perfect sense. It's exactly how I feel.
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You are not alone <3 stay strong
I don't want to die but I want to disappear for sometime at least.
I kind of can relate. I don't like living, but I don't want to go anywhere after I die. Just stay hereon earth and watch everyone live their lives.(sounds creepy)So, I guess that's the ghost type thing, huh? It's confusing for me :/
Sometimes i just want to pick up and go. Just drive somewhere, anywhere else, like that will help the way that i feel. Like i just want to hide and put my life on pause for like a month or something. I get the being scared to go talk to someone. Hell, im getting a masters in counseling and i havent worked up the energy to go see someone. It doesnt help that i have worked at all of the local centers, and have a poor opinion of most of them. I don't know.