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So I'm back here again posting in these forums I thought stuff had started to progress and things were getting better but yet again life has decided to fuck me.
I should just stop expecting anything good to happen to me like why the fuck am I like this? Why won't I ever be good for anyone? I just want to belong somewhere. My birthday is in a few months and I'm probably gonna spend it by myself yet again.
Tried to killl myself on new years eve but yet again I failed and woke up in my bathtub, I Juust want one thing to go right I need one thing to go right 😔😔😔
I know exactly how you feel too. Everyday I'm asking myself same questions. Again your not on your own and your feelings are justified. I don't know if anything in your life has changed in a bad way or something has happened for you to feel this way about yourself but I know depression lead us to it and further. The best thing is to keep talking about it and expressing how you feel to others like what your doing. It maybe one day become something you may take up full time helping to get is talking more about our health and what makes you wanna find out what helpful advice is out there. Doing your research finding stories papers.
In the future your work might become recongised. What I'm saying is having something to strive for if it talking to others, giving up your time helping the poor or looking after your old neighbor are good things what will see the good in you and in time you can work through that develop yourself the person you are and then your see things going right.
Don't give up. You can do this
Hugs