I am feeling a little sad this holiday season because......

This's the first holiday without my grandmother

I feel like I'm not going to be good enough. Like it's already too late.

I hate my appearance with all my strength, every feature of it.

This year I basically did nothing besides working and trying to study, I still got no friends, even less a girlfriend, never had one, and no girl seems interested on me at all, no girl checks me, anywhere, and I feel stupid for feeling like this and I feel alone with no hope of this issue get over.

I am stressed due to my studies.

however, I know I can overcome this, and once I do, I will feel a lot better, and become even stronger with every challenge I face.

I wanted to be happy this Christmas, but I feel like a disappointment. I had a mild panic attack earlier, and now I have a bad headache.

Im out of town for the Christmas holiday and my friends and bf are hanging out and I just keep worrying that im going to be replaced and left behind while everyone else gets to live happy lives. My bf became friends again with a girl that he used to have a crush on but things were complicated and im afraid hes going to drop me for her because shes so much better than i am. And theyre all my friends and i see them having fun being around each other, Im afraid that im just an annoyance to them and im not needed by anyone

I know this is toxic thinking but i cant stop dwelling on it and becoming very upset over it.

I'm tired of being emotionally punished in my marriage. We are supposed to be working on being better to one another before we call it quits. I have asked for counseling and we have yet to do any. It's so much more to it with us both having kids from previous relationships me being the only one working him being down about losing his mother 2 years ago. There's so many days I wish we never made it this deep in. I love him and always have but he's become almost unbearable after his mother's death but i couldn't leave him like everyone else did. He just doesn't seem to notice how sad he can make me turning his back on me silent treatment guilt tripping. I'm at the point I wish I were dead somedays so he would have to live life without me bc I don't feel like I mean anything anyway compared to his mom or his son

I want to talk to the guy that's been my best friend for 7 years, but he threw me away 7 months ago.

I'm just a girl that always sits at home during holidays.. I'm just too depressed for playing phone.I don't like people come in my life.Depression squad can understand that..~

I have no one to enjoy my holidays with.. I'm alone and lonely..