I don't know what to do anymore
I am alone every single day
I have no friends or family to rely on for support. My doctor and old therapist didn't help me at all now I am being bullied online again. I tried to just block it out but figured that my feelings just built up inside of me. I went to the doctor about anxiety she didn't even speak to me about it she ignored it like everyone does :( I feel lost I can't move forward and I can't go back I am literally stuck in front of a brick wall and I can't go anywhere. I tried getting a job and no one will take me on which is making me feel even worse. I tried to apply for counseling and they told me I was not mentally ill enough for counseling. I got told I had Borderline Personality Disorder now I am being told I haven't got it and that I have nothing wrong with me. I have been messed around by therapists and doctors since I was a little kid. I don't know what to do anymore or who to talk to someone help!!!!!
This is exactly how I feel! :/
I'm sorry to hear that your struggling I know how hard it is to get a professional to understand but don't give up. I went to a local charity organisation that offered low cost counselling and I paid a token amount based on my income. I live in the UK maybe there is something like that near you? If you are a student there is student counselling which will provide you with someone to talk to. I tried talking to a listener on this site the other day when I was feeling a bit hopeless and I have to say it was very helpful and managed to get me out of my pit for a while. Try that and go back to the doctors, get a second opinion. I read something the other day that I will share with you because it struck a chord.. We must learn self compassion and that means if we are feeling low don't beat yourself up be gentle with yourself... You are not alone many of us here are going through the same thing. I hope this helps somewhat sending you hugs magsx
I'm so sorry :(:(:( That is so hard..it is amazing that you get upeveryday. I really hope things get better for you..
please help I hate depression
I have nothing
@Maddie14Grace You do have something. You have strength. You know, not everyone can get to 7 Cups of Tea, or any support for that matter because they do not feel strong enough to confess their feelings. They want to hide behind their feelings in a mask full of fake smiles because it seems "easier" than to find help, but not you. You seeked help. You were the one who logged on to 7 Cups of Tea and told people how you're feeling. You don't have nothing. You are a strong couragious person, and anyone who doesn't see that in you, doesn't deserve you. And in terms of people, you have us Listeners and fellow community of 7 Cups :) We might just be an online community helping one another, but sometimes, that's all you need to get through the day :) We are here for you whenever you need us, and if the forums aren't doing it for you, you can also try a 1 on 1 conversation with a trained Listener, or perhaps try the Depression Support Group Chat where you can talk with Listeners, Moderators, members, and guests alike :) Cheer up bud, deep breaths, you got this :)
Hello, my name is Stephanie. I am 16 years old. For the past 3 years, I have been holding all these sad, hurt, mad, etc feelings. Everyday I put on my mask. This mask hides the real me. This mask comes with a smile anda cheerful personality. This mask was the old me. Always smiling, so cheerful and friendly. I want to feel like this again, I want to be me again. This time, I don't think I can. I'm trying to talk to peoplewhocare about me but they never listen (including my family). Everyday, I feel worseand worse everything that once made mehappy doesn't. This quote describes me.
"I am Tired of smiling, tired oftrying, tiredof hoping, tired of coping, tired of breathing, tired of living. I am Done" ~Anonymous
I just want to feel happy again. I want to feel like I am being cared for. I feel like my friends in the end, don't care about me, they are those people that stab you in the back and leave you forever. I don't know what to do anymore.
@autumnfear I have been there as well. Some people just use others for what they can offer and then push you to the curb. Trust me, you aren't alone and it's just who they are. It's something I've learned to accept that will never change in them, and you just have to move on. Find new friends. Find people who love you and cherish you for you, not for your mask. Find people who you love to hang out with, who share common interests, or just some form of commonality. I personally believe, like relationships, there are friends out there for people too that match exactly what you're looking for. You just have to go out and find them. As for people caring about you, you have to realize that all the Listeners here, all the members care about you and what you have to say. We're here for you 100% of the time. Don't you ever forget that 7 Cups of Tea, if you let it, can be your family too :)
