I feel hopeless
I’ve been living with depression and anxiety for most of my life and self harmed on and off since I was 11 and I’m 19 now. I go through these periods of time where I feel okay and happy until the depression hits me again and I go back to feeling awful.
This time it’s back worse than ever and I’ve started self harming again. I just don’t know what to do and I have no one to talk to. Every time I think I’m getting better I just get proven wrong again and again. I’m so sick of this cycle and I just feel completely hopeless
@ivoryEast0909
Hi! I am happy that you have reached out here. So many of us grow up having no one to talk to; as adults it is up to us to find appropriate people to talk to and get support. It takes a bit of practise! It looks like you have made a start, well done! 🤗💛
It sounds like depression and anxiety might be coping mechanisms that you developed to protect yourself/survive in the environment you grew up in. It takes a bit of time and effort to find new healthier ones, and to find solutions/treatments/therapies that work for you. Have you tried any of these sorts of things yet?
There are some great ideas here that you can look at immediately, and go through yourself or with a good listener:
https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php
Sending you hugs and empathy! It can be really overwhelming to feel so hopeless, alone, depressed and anxious. 💛
Thanks for your reply I really appreciate it. I currently have no way to get out of the environment I’m in but talking about it helps
Hey....you are not alone dealing with this. Stay strong you are courageous to reach out here for support.I am 17 facing the same challenges as of yours.Lets be optimistic we'll surely find a way....
❤️@ivoryEast0909
Hey East,
I'm sorry to hear you've been suffering from depression and anxiety for a long time. I understand the struggle with self h*rm. I understand feeling okay then depression comes out of nowhere and makes things worse for you.. I understand it's worse than it was and I'm very sorry to hear. I understand you thought you got better but then you fell into that spiral again. I know it's difficult and I know what it is like to feel hopeless. I know it's a battle you fight everyday. But you can get better. It does take time as you know. I wish the best for you and that you feel better about yourself. I hope you know you're not alone here on 7 cups. Depression is really hard to go through. I'm glad you were brave enough to share about how you're feeling. Please know that this is a safe place for you and that your feeling and emotions are valid and important. I hope this message finds you safe and healthy as possible.💜
@ivoryEast0909
It was smart for you to reach out here and open up about your depression and anxiety. It shows that you want to feel better and are taking active steps to do so.
I understand that self-harm helps distract you from your depression and anxiety. It makes complete sense you would want relief from your suffering.
If you are interested in checking out some resources, this page offers some alternative behaviors that have helped others manage their urges to self-harm. There's also a community here on 7 Cups specifically for self-harm.
I'd be more than happy to chat with you privately. Text me any time.
Thanks for sharing your story. ❤️🤗
