When I see my son, How his chance at any quality of life was stolen. When I see his feeding tube hanging out his belly, and wonder how I never somehow protected him from the severe extensive brain damage he suffered at birth
@December89
Don't say that, i don't think that it's your fault.
@marie04 thank you. I know myself theres little I could have done but it doesnt change how I feel, and Im reminded every day, this is 18month down the line.
When my dad listens to himself only and calls me a liar every day, morning and night
When i think about both of my sisters, who have died. They were the only people i loved, and I miss them everyday.
When I sit down at the end of the day, having been motivated to get everything done, and I'm so drained from everything I've done to improve on my situation that I start thinking about how truly messed up everything really is and how hard it's actually going to be to get through it. This is usually when I start getting suicidal -surprisingly worse at the end of "good" days.
I see how I wasted my last 5 years.
When people let me down..
When I really want to talk to someone, but fear that I am being a burden to them.
@philosophicalperson8202 I feel the same way like it
I realize the quantiness of my existence, that I have no meaning, purpose, or reason to continued but I fear the loss of it. Being aware of my inablity to decide what to do, stay alive for another day or fade away. I am one of seven billion, no one is like me. I am one of seven billion, but I am alone.
@Laura Im deprived of intercourse... #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
I do something slightly wrong or are criticized :(
@brightMelon7624 *am
