I found myself hurting myself for someone and then crying for hours

There was a point I was so upset and regretful and confused in my life. I realized i couldnt escape any of it. I couldn't explain it. I didn't want to be in my own skin anymore. I didn't want to be me.

I first noticed a change in my mood and personality when I was 16. Having had a close friend suffer with depression, I knew I needed to take care of myself and made the effort to do things I enjoy. However, when I moved to university everything kind of just went downhill. I didn't have a genunine connection with many people and I began to feel very isolated. I'm hoping to get myself onto a path of recovery now that I've graduated!

When everything ceased to be Funny.

When I couldn't seem to smile or find myself making people laugh or smile

I would cry everyday and things I loved and enjoyed I didn't want to do because they gave me no fulfillment.

I lost my job which was the first time i felt I belonged somewhere. My job gave me importance, value, self confidence, and then 3 years and BAM! Company goes down and we are all laid off. That feeling is undescribable.

when i realised i wouldn't mind if i just stopped existing

When I felt like I was sinking deep into a pit of desperation, with no possible escape.

I couldn't pay my bills on time.