I first noticed I was living with depression when......
When I was having suicidal thoughts multiple times a day.
When I noticed that even in moments when I knew I should be happy, I wasn't. I was feeling numb and lonely all the time
i realized i was trying to hide who i really am and pretending to be happy all the time and regretting everything i have done after school everyday
When i suddenly, out of the blue, attempted suicide. I was doing homework, and suddenly i started thinking about swallowing a bunch of pills. It was so random, and it was spur of the moment. I swallowed a bunch of pills and my sister found me and called 911.
@DeadlyVirus
I did that in 7th grade. Then I had to go to school and I got so sick and passed out in the girls' restroom. Someone found me after the choir director sent them to look for me. They called in the campus police officer and he carried me to the nurse's office. Then they took me to the hospital b/c I had eaten half a bottle of aspirin.
When I stopped caring about which direction my life was going.
...I was sad all the time. Crying, sad for next to no reason.
I was sitting in my car outside a restaurant trying to get up the courage to go in. And they were all my good friends
I was constantly crying, I had no motivation to do my work and I thought about killing myself.
I was about 4 yrs old and I would just lay under the porch all day long... sad
When I had random crying outbursts and mood changes.