I wish I could just run away

I doooo. I’m in an abusive marriage. That’s exactly what I wanna do! Completely relate to youuu

@Psalm139 I can completely relate! I’ve had thoughts of wishing I could just run away for awhile now. It would be nice to live off grid somewhere, to just take a mini vacation away from the world, ambiguities, and responsibilities. For me the root of this has to do with social anxiety, fear of rejection, and depression. It can be really tough to navigate daily living when you’re struggling in any way.

@Psalm139 I'd love to disappear, and If I could afford a cabin deep in the woods, that's where I would be. I'm not cut out for modern society. Too fast paced, demanding and stressful, and far too many people for my liking. Way too much competition for work, housing, and other resources.

I don't know where or when in the world I might fit in. Possibly on a small farm, in the 1600s. I dream of stepping through a portal into an alternate universe. To escape I've created an entire world inside my head. It's beautiful there, in my dream home and gardens, high atop a mountain, overlooking the sea. In that place... crime, violence, war, poverty and noise pollution do not exist.

Sadly it's only a fantasy realm, and my present reality is a living nightmare. So I'm searching for an affordable place to rent, on the outskirts of a smallish rural town. But not completely off grid living.