I wish…
I literally just wish tomorrow I could wake up and feel different. Be different, think different.
Its like I hear all the advice, the kind words, “the help” and I literally still feel exactly the same. I genuinely WANT to change, I don’t want to feel like this anymore and I still do?
I still can’t eat, it literally makes me feel sick. I still can’t get up. I still don’t like myself.
Im unhappy. I’m unhappy here and I feel useless. I feel violated.
Every single day is harder than the last. How do I get out of this?
Hey!
I’m very sorry that you are feeling like this.
I can deeply relate to your post, unfortunately.
The truth is, it doesn’t matter that much what people say or how much you want to feel okay.
Depression is a disease and it should be treated as such!
When you have a cold, words can make you feel better but they can’t heal you. Wanting to feel better will help you make the recovery faster but again, it won’t heal you.
It’s exhausting, painful, tiring and very overwhelming.
Depression is an illness that requires more than a hug and determination, we all know that to a certain point.
I feel in my heart your words, I know how it is like to ask yourself over and over again when things will get better.
We are waiting for something that we know should come, but never with the certainty that it will. It makes the breath heavier and darkens our view of the world and of ourselves.
I used to ask myself what was so wrong with me, and what I did to deserve to feel the weight of the world on my lungs, and on my body.
Theres some things that you can try, that will hopefully make you breathe easier.
This is a list that works for me, it might not work for you, and if it doesn’t you can try and figure out what does, and that could be a good distraction as well.
- reading, some recommendations - “the 7 husbands of Evelyn Hugo” , “Animal”, “when breath becomes air”, “ Furiously happy: a funny book about horrible things”
- writing
- painting
- working on something that you used to like
- watching stand up
- watching series or movies (happy ones)
- working out
- going for a walk
- getting a pet
- cooking
Ps: no pressure, you can literally do some of these things for like 2 minutes, and don’t make yourself do these things when you are 100% not in the mood. This should be light, you shouldn’t demand too much of yourself!
Sending lots of love ❤️
I wish that one day, i get up from my bed, look out from my window and see the sun smiling at me, telling me that Maham! you are going to have a wonderful day
i wish that day becomes so lovely that i forget that i had parents who are toxic, and don't even care about me, my life and my heart heals from the wounds they have given to me and i just live the day without anyone's interference
How i wish that i would be all alone with my four loving friends, which i hope everyone gets in their lives, and we would be taking all our burdens out.
I wish that i would be allowed to go wherever i want with my little sister, and there is no one to shout on me that WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU GOING, YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED
i just wish that i will see that one day and the ones who caused me this pain would understand my pain and realize, what they did to me
I JUST WISH THAT I WILL EVER FEEL HAPPINESS AND NO TORTURE OR WORRY☺️
