My whole life is just a waste
I have this crazy thing were I believe the little girl on the photos, was the daughter of my mom, but she died, and I took over her body. Now it feels like the little girl is disappointing, because amnot doing anything with my life, I just cry and complain, and listen too sad songs. My only goal as long as I can think, is too move back too the city I love. But I have too wait 3 more years. That means three more years of boredom and no friends. Everybody talking about which school they going supply on next year, I don`t have a clue. How can I choose my future if my past is so fucked up, I don`t know myself. Who am I? Who shall I become? What amI doing with my life? Is question I ask in the mirror everyday before my pathetic crying comes too place.
I think it was a wasted too give birth on me, I should just die.
Hey Darling,
This situation sounds really difficult, but don't think your life is a waste. You can always change it if you want. I understand how hard it is, especially because you just want to move on to another place, but what about doing some things where you currently live? Even though you say your past is "fucked up", you can always change your future. Your past does not have to determine what you choose to do today or what you choose to do tomorrow. That is completely up to you. I know it sounds difficult, especially when our past seems to reflect the decisions we make, but I can definitely tell you things do get better. Sometimes speaking about what bothers you the most or what caused you to see the world this way can help immensely. With that being said, if you ever need someone to speak to, please do not hesitate to send me a message. Sending lots of love and very warm hugs your way!<3
Thanks! It means alot to know its somebody out there who sees me.
Hey darling, there is no need to thank me, really! I'll always be here whenever you need someone, don't ever forget that. <3
Estelle1313,
If I may caveat the previous reply, there is absolutely nothing wrong in not having a clear direction right now in fact It took me well over 10 years to finally decide on a degree program in psychology. I do understand your position; even after joining the Army initially I was envious of my peers who were going off to college right out of high school and there I was a looser in the Army. There are times in our life when we need to just pull over into the slow lane or even get off the highway all together and travel a rural road for several miles.
So you have to wait for three years to move back to the city or place you love, this now becomes a goal or focus of your motivation. As each day goes by it is a day closer to moving back to the city you love. In those three years there is more opportunity to find you or to view different options that become available.
In closing I would share this with many of my soldiers under various conditions; it is a quote from Shakespeare.
"Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and
some have greatness thrust upon 'em."
Twelfth Night (II, v, 156-159)
Thanks for the responses, Its a diffucuelt enough that I am an teenager but, to not know who you are or what do you want to become in first place sucks. All I know is that I have to go back to the city I love, if not I will probably take suicde, this time make me so depressed and my friends, are really not my friends
I understand what you mean, but a lot of life is about discovering yourself, You are a brave and amazing person to speak about these issues, and you arent a waste. I struggle to see the bright side of my life and what direction i am going in sometimes, but its normal. I dont think you were a waste to give birth to, and i havent ever met you.
Just remember tomorrow will be another day,
Feel free to message me if you need to talk or need any support
Im quite new to this so forgive me if what i say sounds weird lol look you can choose your life your past can make it difficult and make it seem impossible but you make your path and to be able to do so is impressive i know it seems hard and it really is but just getting through the teenage is probly the hardest point of life it get so much easier dont get so down about what you arent now and lift your head up to see what you can be it really sucks right now and i know how it feels to not be accepted and thats why you have to show them how amazing you truly are rise above those who bring you down and then you can move on toward your goals whatever they may be just do me a favor and dont let suicide be an option all it does is bring more pain it a permanent solution for a temporary problem so if you ever feel the need to talk im not a listener but i will listen ok