Not sure if I’m ok
I have someone in the house and phone numbers so I’m not in that kind of danger. I have been up and down for months without much of a break. It’s ruined my 8 year relationship and I just got back home from a restful week off. We have. 2.5 year old and we fought right away. I can’t do it anymore. I’m not nice, I’m not myself. She has judged on all my manic behavior and now I’m at the bottom and she can’t really support me much.
I keep crying uncontrollably, my boy is seeing it and saying sorry papa, and gives me a hug. It’s so sweet but I feel like a failure. I’m scaring him and I can’t control myself. I’m also having a med reaction and will need to discontinue. I’d consider going to a hospital if this keeps up.
I just don’t know what to do. I should work tomorrow and need to watch the boy. I don’t want to mess this up. I feel like I could lose it and I’m worried.
@jazino
Hello there, thank you so much for sharing this post with us. I'm really sorry to hear that you've been feeling up and down a lot lately, as as a result it ruined your relationship. All this must be really difficult to handle, I can imagine. As heartbreaking this post is, it does make my heart melt hearing how your son was there to support you emotionally.
You shouldn't be dealing with all of this alone. If you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to pm me or any of the other listeners.