One thing I feel sad about right now is....

I'm useless. I never should have existed.

I might be leaving my current job

That i have no escape from my illnesses

my family is kinda ingnoring me, thier just acting like i dont exisit and when i do something that catches their attention i get yelled at. like for instance yesterday my cat was sleeping on the chair and i grabbed in an was going to bring him to my room. she yelled at me for waking up the cat. and if i tell her how i feel she will put me back on antideppressants.

One thing I feel sad about now is how everything seems to be great one second and the next, it's not. But whatever it is I'll try my best to be my best and stay strong

I can't make someone happy regardless of how much I want them to be.

I don't know if I can ever get better. As soon as I think i have this beat it knocks me back down.

That it is ME that is causing pain and suffering. I am restrictions myself from happiness and food, I am abusing myself with self-loathing thoughts and self-harm, I am preventing the outside world to see me, to give me a chance, I am the one who told my body to self-destruct, to go to hell. Not my parents, therapists, society, nobody. I AM killing myself slowly, ignorant enough to think I'm okay with the company of my brain and cut off hobbies who pose as strangers than long life friends. I am my own worst enemy and I can't seem to change that. No matter how hard I try, my mind finds ways to be more tolerant from my own tricks of self-benefit, of picking myself up. It always finds a way to kick me in the stomach and spit in my eye.

My favorite artist passed away and I'm so sad and shocked...he helped me out so much through many hard times, he kept me going and his music means everything to me, I can't stop crying just when I think about him I get so sad, Avicii I love you so much you mean the world to me I'm so thankful for everything you did for me, I will miss you so fucking much...😔RIP, I love you ❤️

I'm working 60+ hours a week, but after bills and rent are paid, theres nothing left and I dislike the feeling of having to live paycheck to paycheck. We can barely afford gas to get me to and from work, we have one vehicle so its hard to deal with since he has classes to go to and I have work. I have loads of schoolwork that I have been putting off and it's all due on Monday, which is my fault. It's just mad stressful. I feel like my fiance and I are drifting apart, but he says everything is ok. He hasn't shown any affection in what seems like months. I miss my dog, she's been gone for 2 years as of yesterday and I miss her like crazy. I'm just stressed all of the time, every minute of the day and it's exhausting being this stressed. I'm depressed about everything, about life.