One thing I feel sad about right now is....
Exam Tomorrow. I've failed it before and in alotof debt paying to resit. I'mso anxious I can barely study or learn atm. I did alot but i have poor memory and i think the questions will be too hard for me. This is my last chance and I've already beenkept back for years in college whenishould be finished. Sighs
I feel sad most when I think about anything regarding love. I just haven't felt it in the longest time.
One thing I feel sad about right now is the feeling of lonliness and consistently asking myself if I will ever be good enough for anything or anyone. My whole life I never had anyone stick by me. My father has never been a father to me, more like a distant cousin that when you get together you talk about guy stuff like having sex with woman and sports and see every 6 months. My mother has always been in and out my life. I was always left at my grandparents house growing up as a kid and having her party life and boyfriends come first over me. With also being raped and abused until I was 9 by one of my mothers close friends that happens to be a older woman that I told no one about. Every woman that I have ever dated has cheated on me and left me. I have severe trust issue i grew up watching my mother being a exotic dancer and cheater on her boyfriends with old sugar daddy's and other men and making me lie for her. My heart has 100 daggers in it but it continues to try to pump blood like it's never felt pain. I'm damaged and hurt from everything I've been through in life and I just cant understand why no one loves me. Why everyone leaves. Why everyone hurts me when my love is pure and I continue to try to love like it's my first time. I smile everyday and make everyone happy but deep down I'm on my knees crying for help. I feel alone even when I'm surrounded by people
I feel like im losing the people I love because I don't want to be agreeable anymore or because I seem to them to be needy. They do things that are below their character and I tell them but they end up feeling foolish which isn't my intent. Then another person is making our relationship confusing and I lash out now more than I did because I want to know what's going to happen. I want to know the future and can't relax in the moment. That's more than one thing 😅
The lost of my parents
All he wants is space is to be away from me, I need his safety so I dont badly hurt myself
I am all alone. I am afraid of being alone forever. I feel depressed.
Hey! I have been feeling very low these days. I am single since a long time and i have tried but i cannot make a boyfriend because i'm socially weird. I only have one friend to talk to throughout the day who is also busy these days. I spend my whole day at home alone doing nothing. I have no where to go. Please help me
im lonely and i feel sad, cause despite living in a house full of people who love me, as happy as i am, i still feel that depression that hole in my soul, in my heart, that everything i do has no meaning, dealing with the fallout from finding a new love crush only to hear that they are NOW engaged, i worked with this crushed before as a co-worker
My past and future failures upset me. My inability to find a simple part-time job, such as cashier or a cleaner... I am also struggling to complete my college program, not because my marks are bad, but because I cannot find an internship. I've been looking for 6 months, and I am still looking. I cannot get a diploma until I find it, even though my grades are incredibly good. It makes me question why do I even bother doing well, writting my essays and study, if all that matters in the end is finding an internship and completing these working hours. I don't see how my past academic achievements are helping me, they seem completely pointless at this point. I used to think that doing welll in school and being a good person is important, yet now I see that none of these personal strenghths and are helping me in the real world. I am unemployed, in debt (college loan), and can't see a bright future.
I feel like all of my friends are ahead of me, it makes me difficult to talk to them. They all live with roomates/partners, have some sort of income, and are able to complete their university programs. Everytime I talk to them, I feel like garbage compare to them. They are better than me at "living".
The only good part of my life right now is my partner. We have been dating for almost 2 years. He is incredibly supportive and always makes me smile. We dream about living together, and waking up next to each other every morning. But when my depression kicks in, I realize that is not going to happen any time soon, due to my unemployment/our education. I feel like I'm stuck in this hole forever, and my dreams will never come true.