One thing I feel sad about right now is....
I failed my biology class this semester. I studied literally all day for two days for the exam and I passed the exam...It wasnt enough to pass the class. I passed my lab with a 75 and in the class I made a 68. They are two separate grades.
I dont want to tell my dad that I didnt pass. Hes going to be furious. I was already anxious about the final and finding out that I didnt pass has gotten me in a low mood. My boyfriend is passing both of his classes this semester which Im happy for him but it makes me feel shitty because I didnt pass my class.
My mother drinks,gambles, smokes and ignores me unless I mess up.
My stepfather is an abusive, controlling, negative ocd assehole.
my father is a self obsorbed annoying idiot and my step mother is the exact same way.
I have to raise my step brother because they dont pay attention to him and if they do they tell him lies that I have to correct.
Not only that but Im dealing with my PTSD and my sisters as well.
It also doesnt help that I forgot who I truly am do to always trying to fit everyones expectations of me.
so yeah thats what Im sad about. Its mostly just numb now. The whole who cares just do through the motions with black and while goggles on. The only thing that makes me happy is supernatural now.
I want to hurt but I'm trying to recover. I feel useless.
Its a year today since you walked into my life and now it's over.....
Reaching out and no one there that wants to listen to me, so whats the point with anything anymore. Just keep them it to myself n they say talking help not in my case.
@sensibleMap2920
I get what you are saying -- really.
Explore your options here -- Listeners (keep going until you click with one); hit the forums and post about your concerns and feelings (there's usually somebody on the same river but in a different boat that will connect); check out the exercises
Explore writing, art, creating -- whatever lets out what you are feeling.
Keep reaching... you never know who or when someone will reach back
that i need to talk with her so bad, but i can't because she doesn't care.
I'm sad about how the friend I love is very hurt by who they loved. And that I can't help in any way. I hope just being on helps a little. It hurts seeing that they are hurt because I want the best for them.
Wanting to help but also having things I have to do for myself is difficult. My work and amount of sleep and anxiety. But I have to be strong.
He's leaving. And us pribably happy about it, and that he'll have someone better to work with.
I feel stuck. Physically and mentally. I keep getting deeper and deeper into the hole and I can't get out.
I feel sad that I may have officially ruined my one of my closest friendships and it's all my fault. I'm also worried that it's only a matter of time before all of my friendships fall apart
