One thing I feel sad about right now is....

eating.

I guess I'm sad because I'm wondering if I'm self sabotaging myself or if I'm genuinely doing the right thing. I have a crush who may like me back and I keep racking my brain over it. I just feel like I can't be in a relationship or even casually date because I don't think I'm emotionally stable. I'm just still dealing with self harm ideas, I'm sad most days, I've fallen out of love with a lot of my hobbies, I isolate myself from people, and I feel like there isn't much hope for myself in the future. I feel like this person deserves someone better and healthier than me but at the same time... I haven't been close to anyone in that way. Maybe once I want to be selfish and let my guard down and just see where this goes, but at the same time I'm being selfish. I'm possibly letting someone in on something they possibly can't handle nor should they. It's not their burden but mine. I guess I'm sad because in letting someone go because it's the best for them or I guess I'm sad because I know this will be a continuous pattern in my life. It's just a lot.

That I keep sleeping in just because I dont want to face work or life in the morning. Last so many mornings. I wake up with a terriable mood & have to fight my way to a better mood if I can manage. Then comes the figuring out what I need to do during this day and imagine I have gotten 3 tasks done and which would help me feel good about myself & accomplished enough to not hate this day or life. Today was awake by 9am but couldnt get up till 12pm. Slept more

Last year i was feeling so down and i wanted to change something in my life.

So i created a blog to keep my mind of all the dark thoughts that were running over and over through my head. I'm not saying that they are over now, however at least i have a new things to think about. When i get up in the morning, i start writing for my blog and my day is much more filled.

Wishing all people struggling through depression, a lot of luck and keep on holding. Bright days are coming, Belive me!

Everyone become a person who can potentially hurt me. And its my fault.

I feel sad that I feel like i'm going no where in life.

I feel sad that I let him mistreat me for so long. And even now we are maintaining a friendship. I can't help it. I'm a natural born helping person.

I feel sad because I miss him, I miss what could have been.

Not being able to play with my friends!

I feel sad that I can't talk to anyone in my family about how I feel.