One thing I feel sad about right now is....
I joined an MLM (LOL and it is NOT going well. I feel like I'm drowning trying to care for my four kids and clean our home (my husband is a perfectionist and complains about the messes and lack of organization constantly). Money is tight, I'm tired and grumpy with my sweet kids who deserve so much better! I don't exercise even though I want to. I just feel really pathetic and losery.
@popsicle9 I don't know you but honestly I feel losery for how I don't look after myself - you just be so busy with four children, I don't have any kids so I literally have no excuse to be as lazy as I am x
Being alone right now.
My life
I broke up with a boyfriend and a friend. Well actually, he broke up with me. Im sad that Im loosing 8 years of friendship and support as well as a romantic relationship with someone that I loved. I feel a loss in my life. He still wants to be friends, but I dont know if I can or if thats healthy for me. I am at a total loss for how to redefine him in my life, or if I should even try. Both options are completely overwhelming and equally sad.
@549 I hope you feel better and find a path to re-define yourself as you say. Experiencing loss is painful and sad. A year removed, I still feel the loss of my ex, and her family as we were really close. It takes time but gets better. And being friends not good for your health was really true for me as well. Having a patch of time for no contact is good I think and can help in re-evaluating whether you want the person as a friend later on. Hugs.
@Serg77 thanks for your kind words. It means a lot to be heard
@549 I know exactly how you feel. My partner recently ended our relationship and I feel like Ive lost both a partner and best friend. I hope to remain friends but am struggling with the loss.
every second of pain that infests my existence. im stultified in this soul-sucking stupor fuckfuckfuck life is exsanguination bleeding me out hemorrhaging into total vacancy nothing left im just bones stuffed inside rotten flesh meat bloodmeal my heart is overloaded with intense sadness i am already dead inside nothing matters everything is garbage i wanna disappear drug me up drug me out of this fucked up abyss of nonstop suffering every day is sofuckingpredictable i wanna swallow a million sedatives and a grenade douse myself in gasoline and then jump off a bridge and blow up ripped to shreds obliterated into a million corpse crumbs that will disperse in abject unnoticed insignificance just like i do now goddamnfuckthisfuckingfuckedupshit
@dpecheur10 i agree. bless your soul
There is nobody who can help me in managing my bipolarity. And I am learning to be happy with bipolar disorder. It is just like taking poison with every meal.
One thing I feel sad about right now is ...
I am sad that my parents made plans for Thanksgiving (USA; Nov 23, 2017) and that entire weekend without consulting me at all, not a bit. They are leaving town to visit my brother. Do they just assume I don't want to come? Or that I can't come for some reason?
I absolutely LOVE Thanksgiving and I feel like they are kind of saying, too bad, see you Sunday. So I am not only sad about this announcement/decision of theirs. I feel hurt, angry, upset, and alone too (and probably several other feelings). ~ Platy
@cyanPlatypus6370 Can you ask them why they made plans without you ? Maybe they will see they made a mistake in not asking you to come.
@Serg77 ....
Yes, I could ... technically speaking. I would like most to talk with my brother. I don't know if there is space for me to stay or if Mom & Dad sort of invited themselves over or if my brother and his family really want/need them to come. My sister-in-law is pregnant and the baby is due very soon (like sometime between Thanksgiving and like? Dec 6th). So I'm not sure if I would just be in the way or if they really did invite M&D to come and help 'clean up the house to prepare for a newborn,' as Mom says.
Anyway, it basically boils down to ... I'd like to talk with my brother, here real soon-like.
Thanks for your suggestion - there's almost 4 weeks so I may get around to asking how you said. (shrugs) This remains to be seen, I guess. ~ Platy
@cyanPlatypus6370 I see it's a bit complex. Well I hope that however you choose, that you know that you are important and your wants/desires are worthy of being expressed. I love Thanksgiving too, very much ! I hope there is a way you can talk with your brother and spend the Thanksgiving with him : )
@Serg77 ...
Hi again, Serg :)
Yes indeed - most plans with my family from like Nov 1 through mid-January, and sometimes through Valentine's Day, are "a bit complex." I did get to talk with my brother and my parents again too. M&D invited me to their home in just under 2 weeks for an early traditional Thanksgiving meal, before they head out of town. Yay! Turkey and potatoes for Platy!!!!
I reached my brother by phone. We talked about the arrangements. He seems quite stressed about a lot of things; I think I might feel in the way or how can *I* help??? if I did go.
So for now I've chosen to stay home. I might watch the animals and the house for M&D - that's not fully set up yet.
Thank you for this reminder! ... that you know that you are important and your wants/desires are worthy of being expressed ... For me, it is often easier to remind others of this than to think or say this to myself. So, thank you, Serg77. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! almost :) Platy
@cyanPlatypus6370
Hello again Platy! : ) I am glad that you get to enjoy a warm, yummy Thanksgiving meal with your mom and dad!! And I am glad you got to speak on the phone with your brother. It sounds like maybe you may have gotten some understanding on everyone's perspectives and why the plans were made that way. The next few weeks sound exciting but also hectic for your brother.
And of course!! I'm glad that helped.. I think that is something we should tell others but also remind ourselves of. Kind of the advice you'd give to a good friend.. "Right back at ya" kind of thing. Happy almost Thanksgiving as well!! I am excited as well :)
I miss what I left behind when I moved...
How I am unsure how school is going to work out for me.
Same thing as usual but it's is particularly bad today... loneliness
