One thing I feel sad about right now is....

Basically im a super depressed mofo every day is predictable no excitement suffocating in loneliness unemployment no idea how im gonna get out of this black hole every day is worthless nothing good happening will never experience magic again no affection no love cant even summon back my creative verve im going broke im trapped inside a bleak prison cell of my empty unadorned meaningless life i know everything thats gonna happen no chance of unexpected impossible miracle happening breaking rules of reality i die a super lonely SOB i will give everything i have to all you beautiful ladies and gents here if unexpected impossible miracle happens but of course it wont it isnt allowed im condemned to everlasting sadness and solitude

I've been very sad because my grandfather is very ill and i think he is going to pass away sometime this week.

There are some bad thoughts and memories I have that won't go away right now, or ever really.

I feel sad that I'm trapped in my own thoughts, i want to run away to some where peaceful and happy but how far can you run from your own mind?!

the fact is everything for me and my pathetic life is super depressingly predictable smothered curdled stuck in uninterrupted stasis of braindead sterile oppressively lonely emptiness drab uninspiring still-life canvas discolored a nude blankness languishing day to day unchanging defaced by misery loveless isolated pointless loneliness devoid of anything exciting. no surprises. sometimes a trick is pulled to suggest an oncoming surprising an impending violation of the unbendable cosmic order that hath condemned me on account of my aberrant unacceptable nature to the vacant desert isle of permanent solitude i have no place n this world

unexpected impossible miracle please. seismic wave. sudden rupture in the rigid flatline, violent swerving, uptick in temperature. excitement newness transformation-- possibilities again. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. i am so out of it gone debased depraved inside my torn up ravaged famished loner world.

i'll give u guys everything i have almost nothing cuz i b close to blame broke im not cut out for this world but i'd give yall $50,000 each if i could everything gets wired into your accounts on condition of the unexpected impossible miracle taking place-- overthrowing the ironclad stifling sterile paradigm-- radically breaking the wicked rules of reality-- i'll give it all away happily if the unexpected impossible miracle occurs and blows my mind out of this solar system. but of course everything is barren and ultra predictable. the miracle is not allowed to happen.

My therapist.

I'm feeling sad and I'm hoping that writing about it would help me adapt I feel so strongly in my heart how much love I have and can give yet don't have anyone to share it with. I know I still have so much to work on myself to be a better person inside, feel good about myself and let go of this guilt. I can keep on telling myself that "my time hasn't come yet" or " its not yet meant to be". I know that I'm smiling inside but soon it fades away when I know its not happening anytime soon.

Today is mothers day and I lost my mom a long time ago so that is making me sad. Then I cant seem to meet a compatble partner or date

I have an ex but he is supposed to be in town next week but hasnt texted me in a few days. I dont like hoping he is going to call or come in or coontact me. The one saving grace is I am a mom to a furbaby cat that is my emotional support animal.

i do love him and he helps me a lot during times like these

Maybe Ill go to yoga today to get out of this funk

Have great day all

I'm sad that one of my friends has been promoted in her job. I should be happy for her, which I am in part but selfishly it makes me feel worse that I'm unemployed and feel hopeless that things will never change for myself and everyone around me seems so happy and moving on. Whereas I'm stuck in a black hole and every time try to climb out I feel like I fall back into it - I want to believe that things will get better but I'm so very very tired.

I feel sad about the amount of hate I seem to have for myself. It crawls up in little things, every day, like how I don't let myself work on things giving me time and space and reassurance; the way I'm always thinking people around me don't actually care about me; the way I forget to leave home, to sleep, to love myself a bit.

I really need to understand why I seem so stubbornly fixed on self-handicapping and self-deprecation when it comes to me.