Venting
I'm sad, I'm going to cry. I want to cry, just to feel something. Something that isn't nothing. Anything. I want to be genuinely happy without someone to make me laugh. I want to have a smile on my face with it being forced for more than an hour. After about 10 minutes of smiling I think it just kind of sticks. Like a piece on a Mr. potato head;stays until you choose to change it. Until it's something neutral...not smiling,Not frowning, not being sad. Just...there. Overthinking kills. From the inside out. I think it eats nerves first. People always say they feel numb. I can relate at times. Don't get me wrong. I can be happy. But never for long, so many issues. Issues cause pain, pain causes sadness...but what does sadness cause? Because I can't cry, I've tried. I want to fell the flow of salty tears down my cheeks. I want to feel the warmth of them on my hand when I wipe them away. I want to feel something, anything for more than 30 minutes. Because it's in between that really hurts.
@MarieM1002 I am so sorry for your sadness without tears. There are often roadblocks within us to not allow us to express emotions. Have you tried any of the chat rooms here at 7CUPS. Sometime being with people helps.
@soulsings people aren't my thing...
@MarieM1002 I totally understand. Social Anxiety has made dealing with people a challenge. If you like researching on your own, this article may be of interest https://www.7cups.com/social-anxiety/
Take care.
You are not alone. :)
@MarieM1002 Hi there, so sorry to hear that you are going through a hard time right now. Emotions are pretty complex, we all struggle with them from time to time. Please know that you are not alone and that we at 7 Cups of Tea are here for you to support you through this difficult time. It sounds like you are having trouble feeling emotions, why don't we talk more about that? Please feel free to message me or any of our other listeners, we would be so glad to speak with you.