What do you do when you don't feel like getting better?

I hear you. I'm struggling with this too. I've had people say it's just "one of those things" and that I just need to wait it out and try to keep living my life. But I don't want to sit idly by, I want to get better. At the same time, though, I'mexhaustedof dealing with this. I encourage you to keep trying. Try to be happy, try to find the root of the problem, try to talk it out with someone you're comfortable with. You do not deserve pain, you deserve happiness and peace. Your feelings are valid, and I think talking them out with someone close to you could be really beneficial.

Depression is one of the most complex, confusing illnesses out there, which makes it so challenging to endure. When it first hit me, all I could think about was trying to figure out the root cause, the "why", in hopes that knowing that would somehow let me fix it, or at least I would not feel so guilty feeling bad for apparently no reason. I also remember hoping something bad would happen to me, something that would manifest on the outside all the hurt I was feeling on the inside, something that then would justify or allow me to have these feelings. But eventually after much researchandtalking to therapists, I have learned that there can be a complex, interplay of causes, many of which are outside your control, such as the way in which our bodies happen to process stress hormones, or the role of digestive health on mood. People like to emphasize behaviors and negative thinking as being the cause, but unfortunately, it's a chicken and egg sort of thing. Months ago I had NO negative, depressive thoughts, and I was active, eating healthy, and social. Depression hit me again anyway. Why? At this point, I'm just accepting that maybe there is no one reason, the depression right now just IS. I wish you healing and love on your journey through this challenging illness, and please remember thatyou didn't ask for it, and you definitely don't deserve to feel any of this pain. The pain is a symptom of an illness, as is our feelings of guilt over not being able to feel happy. Right now, that part of us is broken, like a person who has a broken leg. It will heal in time, but in the meantime, it's okay to not be able to feel happy or gratitude or any of the many things we're told we NEED to feel to "get better". You are doing the best you can right now.

Powerfuleyes, I have same issue with you. I just want to end my life I don't want to struggling anymore. I tried to be happy, positive, motivate myself but it's just very very short period maybe just at the moment. It's enough for me, I'm really tired!!!

Excellent suggestion, GentleMom!

Its hard when you're down in the rutt. I use to call it my rock-bottom. I was so low, there sometimes was nothing left to do. I had no interest in anything, no interest in life, friends, and I felt happiness was unattainable. I either wanted to hurt myself, or end my life.
These feelings are INTENSE- and they don't go away. But one thing that pulled me out of it, was started to explore those feeling in the world around me. I started by taking LONG hot showers, I would feel the water on my body. Take it into the present, recognize the now. I wouldn't think about the past or the future. I would startto take LONG LONG walks outside, absent mindedly lost in my own thoughts. While walking I could feel the atmosphere, see people around me, feel and smell the air. It brough pespective- again focusing on the here and now, not the past and not the future.

These take time to do, but eventually I was able to realize that there is indeed more to this life than just my sorrow. I hope that helps. Moral of the Story, focus on the here and now first- and the past and future will make sense later.

Its hard when you're down in the rutt. I use to call it my rock-bottom. I was so low, there sometimes was nothing left to do. I had no interest in anything, no interest in life, friends, and I felt happiness was unattainable. I either wanted to hurt myself, or end my life.
These feelings are INTENSE- and they don't go away. But one thing that pulled me out of it, was started to explore those feeling in the world around me. I started by taking LONG hot showers, I would feel the water on my body. Take it into the present, recognize the now. I wouldn't think about the past or the future. I would startto take LONG LONG walks outside, absent mindedly lost in my own thoughts. While walking I could feel the atmosphere, see people around me, feel and smell the air. It brough pespective- again focusing on the here and now, not the past and not the future.

These take time to do, but eventually I was able to realize that there is indeed more to this life than just my sorrow. I hope that helps. Moral of the Story, focus on the here and now first- and the past and future will make sense later.

With me i have ups and downs. somedays im okay but others i feel like theres no point anymore. then i thinki'm crazy because i have ups and donws. Also because i cant think on why i feel this way and everytime im happy for a while i wonder how thats possiable if i was just depressed a couple days ago. i dont know im just confuued