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I just want to cry and I hate everything right now. I had the feeling to binge eat and I gave into this feeling and then I made myself sick after. No one knows or would care.

I have so much in my head. So much crap and it's like spirally out of control. I feel like such a failure. It's like whenever I try to get better, I just go back to feeling so sad again. I feel so lonely all the time. At home and at school. Just sitting there overthinking and wondering why people don't want to talk to me. I think of every possible reason. "Obviously I'm ugly, and they don't want to be around someone as ugly as me", or "They think I'm shaped weird, so they avoid me." I am my own toxic relationaship. My anxiety is because of me. My depression is because of me. My body image and self esteem issues are because of me. All of this is my fault because I continuously tell myself it and then believe it. I just want to be happy and confident like all the other girls. But I feel so ugly and disguisting everyday. And then when I try to fix something, I just get stuck in my thoughts again and I just lose motivation. Why can't I just be happy like the girls at my school? Smiling and taking pictures with such confidence. Why do I have to feel so ugly and hopeless? I'm so sick of it! When you want to do these things and feel these things, but you just don't know how. I just truly hate myself for this. All the nights crying and wondering why I just can't stop feeling like this. I just want to give up..😔

Why is everyone so full of rubbish saying they want to help but noone is actually there what's the point in all this

I'm in my very late 20s. I never dated and I'm still living at home. I should be engaged or married at this point in my life like most of my peers are. But I can't find anyway to date and I tried online dating but that's not working because how do I sneak off to meet these guys? And there's no group I can easily find in my region for 20+ year olds which doesn't invovle drinking which I don't do. The FUN stuff is in Toronto and I can't go into Toronto w/o a "bodyguard" which is annoying for a person in their late 20s. I can't even be in an exam room on my own since my parents wouldn't let me do that.

Lately I feel very sad lately. Ever since the summer I've feeling very down and unmotivated to do many things, I wasn't able to sleep properly and if I do sleep I sleep for too long, I've also lost my appetite but that occurred very long ago. I'm also in a very toxic household with my parents constantly fighting and arguing around me, they've talked about getting a divorce but the only reason why they won't do it is because of me, which makes me feel like a failure and feel useless. It's gotten to a point where if they start fighting I immediately get headaches and I feel uneasy. I dont have any close friends, I hangout with a group of people but they're not the type of people I need. In serious situations they dont tend to ever check up on me, so I began to never tell them anything about my personal life. Because of my parents jobs I'm home alone every day for hours and I have no siblings. I've been feeling very lonely for these past 5 months and its causing me a bad ordeal. I feel like there's nobody in the world for me except my boyfriend who is the only person I can talk too about my life.

I feel very down, discouraged, not loved and all negatives right now.

I just got married for like 2 months ++, but somehow I am not happy. I am happy that I married the man I love, but the marriage is not making me happy.

Basically, I'm just someone who is not happy with every single thing in my life. Every single thing. Never once I actually feel contented. I have a promising career, in fact I am very good at it, I have kind family, but I am not happy.

And I thought marriage won't add that 'not happy' list.

I do love my husband, but most of the time, in fact all the time he never understand people like me, a broken one.

I always know that I am problematic, I can't like at things easily, but I can dislike everything in split seconds. I am the type who once I hate, I'll just hate. Purely hatred. I won't be ok, even after all the persuasion. I am just can't be persuaded.

I thought after I told him how problematic I am, he would understand, and his treatment towards me will be different than to normal person. But he didn't. He always expecting things from me like normal people, just because he thinks I am better than this. I feel so frustrated, and I feel so tired that I cry every single night to sleep, with him beside me never noticed that.

I always have the intention to run away from him, from everything, and start new somewhere far away, but I couldn't. I'm just not ready for it. But at the same time, my heart is suffering, for always feel like this.

Help me.

I hate when you need something so much but you can't stand it or even to be near it. I hate it when you are doing what you want to do and suddenly you just feel hopeless and like you can't do it and all you want to do is cry but you can't because they are here. I really hate when people who don't get it pretend they do and say "you just have to not feel that way" I also hate that I am unable to let out my emotions anymore.

warning!!! minor language!!

Everything kind of sucks right now. Im pretty sure some of my friends just tolerate me because I buy them things, one of my friends constantly complains that some dipshit at our school keeps changing her sexual orientation and gender identity then pressing it on+labeling other people things like asexual when were too young to have sex anyways, I think about my ex more who completely fucked me over(ruining my sleep schedule, getting my grades lowered, seriously denting my mental health, threatening suicide on me several times a month, etc)

We all make mistakes, sure, but I dont think Ive made enough for them to not like me very much. Yes, during the holidays I buy them these $50-$60 gifts because theyre the only people who talk to me but Id hope they like me for more then what I give them.

I love when people rant to me, I really, really do but when its about the same stupid person every single day of the week you eventually get sick of it. Its just Dylan this and Dylan that, then I get sucked into some of her b.s drama and all the fucks I cant give are raining from the sky!

Then my ex, Maddie, who made it so damn hard to hide the fact that Im pretty depressed and stressed and apparently Ive been diagnosed with anxiety. She would always tell me that Im no help and how pathetic it is to cry over my dead sister and how I should be able to hold a good grade, how my positivity is worthless

I'm a young 66 and retired early because of chronic pain from a MVA . I'm still caring for my 40 yo mentally ill daughter. I am responsible for managing her money, making sure she takes her meds and goes to her appointments. I'm basically her case manager. I don't get paid for it and it's 24/7. I'm deep in debt as it took me 38 years to get her help and on disability. My son died 2 yrs ago on Thanksgiving so I don't like to celebrate it. I own a home with 1/2 acre to care for and every thing is breaking down or falling apart. I have to figure out how to fix the things I can myself. I have no family it's just the 2 of us and I raised my children alone. No one could handle her mean manic episodes.The stress is getting to me. I've searched online for a support group for a long time as there aren't any f2f ones in my area. They're all for people caring for seniors. Counselors cost too much.

I had foot surgery so I could hopefully find a part time job to help financially. The Dr messed up making it worse causing nerve damage so now I can barely walk. I have no money to get another opinion or further care. The surgery cost me 3xs what they quoted me leaving me in a fix. Where I live its hard to sue a Dr. The Lawyer told me to let the Dr try to fix it even though the Dr admitted to doing something wrong. But do I want the same Dr working on me again? No! He did do laser treatments for free that didn't help but now he's doing nothing. I'm depressed and want to give up but know I won't. But I'm so tired and fear I'm going insane because I get so angry over small things lately. I can't cope with anything. There's a new renter in the house next door who finds joy in revving his loud illegal muffler and playing loud music for hours day and night. He never seems to sleep. The police will do nothing and other neighbors are too afraid of him to do anything. I haven't slept well for months. I long for quiet time to myself, some fun, sleep and I'm tired of trying to fix things around here. I'd like to find a job I can do as SS isn't easy to live on. I keep thinking it can't get any worse but it does. Things just keep happening. I'm tired of struggling to survive.

I used to say I'll never grow up and that one should always play and have fun in their life no matter what age they are. Now I don't know what fun is. Just having a place to talk about all this helps. Thank you.