You can rant here
I know how it feels sometimes when you just want to rant, but don't know who to talk too or even if they will care. Well I care. You're not alone! Please feel free to say whats been on your mind lately, if you want someone to talk too or just want to rant away. I will listen.
I keep fucking drinking and smoking. In the day i do them im fine. But the days to follow i feel shitty
i feel very lost just now , instead is next month 29th went to the supermarket thinking was today .
I'm going to his class tomorrow , feeling a bit nervous 😓 .
sunday I may go the airport to send him & his wife , idk how I'm going to react as both of them are bringing a tour to Japan for 9 days ...
mixed emotions 😢😱🤣
I have nothing in my life I really enjoy. I have work and School and there's always something expected of me that I do because I already feel like a burden to everyone. I'm behind in school and can't motivate myself to do better and feel like I am useless.
@Turdle Hope that you
Sick of not being mentally able to work, all the jobs around me being crap and me having no skills or energy, of not having any friends and income, of having fallen through the cracks in the higher education system and thinking of almost certainly quitting after over three years with nothing, of living in a barren world where even when I see a psychologist every week nobody helps me, of self sabotaging and being blamed for every little bad thing I do by people who should be helping me. I'm so sick and tired of it all.
@spinningaway Society tells you that you have to go down a certain path to be successful but they are very wrong. No ones life path looks the same and neither will yours. You don't have to go to college or do certain things to be successful. Rejection only teaches you lessons and gives you perseverance so don't get discouraged if you can't keep a job but try to find as many things as you can that motivates you so you can do everything you can. Do what you're passionate about because that's what you'll enjoy doing and be motivated to do. Don't get discouraged because you didn't go down the career path society always says to take because everyone's path is their own
augh i hate everything and myself idk why im still even doing this
I feel the same way. I wake up and wonder why I even got another day when they always turn out bad anyways. nothing makes sense, I'm a terrible person and everyone hates me and everyone would be better off if I was just, gone
I cant move. I cant leave my house. I cant do anything. Im so empty
@IDoLikeYellow why can't you move? If it's a physical disability I'm very sorry maybe try to focus on what you can control besides what you can like you may not be able to move the same way but maybe you have more time to read certain books you never did or watch certain movies and take care of yourself since you'll have a lot of time inside and possibly alone. Don't get discouraged because lots of people have disabilities and that's part of what makes people unique. If it's mental then try to break those barriers you put up in your mind for whatever reason you don't want to deal with society. As reasonable as it is to be done dealing with people this is the world we live in and there is actually a lot of beauty in people and humanity when you really pay attention. It may seem hard to find motivation often but focus on the little things like the fresh air and health benefits.
@modestYard8589
Thank you so much for the response. It means a lot
I am extremely tired , crestfallen and dejected of my life . Every day my depression just keeps getting worse . My life situation just keeps getting hopeless . I am tired of taking meds all the time . Tired of therapy sessions too . There seems to be no way out . I see no light at the end of the tunnel . I have tried to remain strong for far too long . Now there is absolutely no energy left in me . I am not sucidal , but just have given up now .
Really sorry to write such a negative post . Apologies :(.
@calmsoulmeet you're alright negativity is part of makes depression what it is and it's not your fault for feeling and thinking these things. So many people including myself can relate to feeling alone and empty and hopeless like you said but as hard as it is you've got to realize it WILL get better. Perhaps try to get in touch with others who have overcome similar obstacles to encourage you and praise every little step forward you make because any progress is still progress.
@calmsoulmeet i am so sorry you are going through this.. depression can be tough.. I truly hope you find something good for you that you love doing❤❤ I know that my words can not make your life better but at least you expressed your feelings somewhere right?❤ Maybe expressing your feelings makes you feel better?☺☺
For quite a while now I've just had the feeling of wanting to run away. What ever school, house or country I've been put into I just want to run away from the life I currently have. Recently I've been pretty down and packed a bag in a silly from weekend drama and realized I had nowhere to go. Just walked the streets for hours and ended up going to a friend's house. I feel like I'm making myself upset for no reason, like why do i feel this way still when something has passed a week or years ago? I really don't want to end up like some people in my life.
Already dreading my birthday that's coming up in January. The more I think about how I want to be in a relationship, the more depressed I feel. I suddenly remembered something. I had a male coworker back in 2012, he was the first person to ever tell me that although I'm always smiling and laughing with others, that when he looked into my eyes, there was sadness. He had show some interest in me back then, but he later turned into a Transgender. Not that I have anything against him, he later on moved back to his home country and I haven't heard from him since. But, makes me wonder now, if I will every find that guy that can see through to the real me, like he did. Or is there no such person. Where can I meet him? Will I ever meet him? Going to be 33 soon and I'm lonely. I've only been daydreaming and fantasizing about meeting my dream guy. If it can't happen in reality, I can always dream about it, right?~
I would want to see all the people in my life that made me suffer, suffer in return. From the kid that bullied me in kindergarten to the last employer who laid me off. I would want to see them standing in a row in front of me. I would want to see them agonizing in pain one after the other. See them twitch and suffer. I want to weigh all the mental pain they did to me and transform it into physical pain for them.
I tried to play my role in this society. I did my best my whole life, and this is where it got me. Society is not just. Those in power win, the weak ones lose. I want to believe in institutions and legality but after a lifetime trying, I see that it doesn't pay off. I don't like the mafias but I do understand the concept now. I wish I could make justice for myself.
@mathstwa It's not very healthy to want to seek revenge. I know you've been hurt but will it make your past pain go away if someone else suffers too? Think about it. Just for a bit perspective. The other day ran into someone who'd physically abused me a while ago, we said hello and talked for a bit then suddenly he asks if he may give me a hug. He had the saddest eyes I've ever seen and I decided to give him a hug not because I needed it but because he did. That was his way of saying he was sorry for the things he did to me. I healed and I wanted to give him a chance to heal too.
@GretasRebel
I am glad things worked out for you.
However, reading your post is not helpful.
You write here to reprimand me for what I feel.
The feelings I have are there, they are valid and they have to be acknowledged.
Who are you?
You are in no position to tell me that it's wrong to feel what I feel.
And that I should try to think of something that in your perspective is the right thing to do.
This platform is a space that allows people to out and share.
I am sure you wrote these things in good faith, but if you want to help, try to get some knowledge on how to do it properly.
@mathstwa I was talking about your need for revenge. It's not good to deliberately hurt other people.
@GretasRebel
I believe once again I failed to get my point across.
Hurting others is bad. Believe it or not I do have the most basic ethic principles straight. You have to take my word for it.
This being said, instead of showing empathy, you are here telling me that what I write is a bad thing.
Once again I ask you: why would you be in any position to tell me that what I feel is bad?
In fact any good therapist would tell you that the desire to hurt people that hurt you and revenge are very natural thoughts for a human being.
You tell me that my thoughts are bad, I tell you human existence is not so black and white, dear GretasRebel. Maybe you are not that much of a rebel after all.
You gave unsolicited advice to me, I will give some to you -- not because I think I am in a position to do it but for fun. Listen more carefully and think with your own head if you can.
@mathstwa
If you wontletme post why do you have this thread?